jcrabapple

she gave me a wonderful little card with a great message in it. that really made me feel a lot better. i've been waiting for something like that. i just hope it keeps happening. i know she loves me, i don't doubt that. but i want to feel like she really wants me. i NEED to feel like she wants me. feeling unwanted and feeling like someone else can give her something that i can't, that is the absolute WORST. yet it is out of my control. i can give her everything and do everything i know how to do and be perfect, and it still might not be better than someone else, just because i'm her boyfriend. after talking to her, for the most part i feel like everything will be ok.

i just REALLY need to be shown that i'm wanted, in EVERY way.