I'm been primping and quaffing for the past couple days for my date tomorrow. Its been along time since I've been on a date of any kind. I hope things go well. Dinner and drinks, sounds good to me. Its hard to pick where to go to eat here, most dining establishments in this town are fast food becuase of all us college kids. I...
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fyrestarter:
so how did it go????? let me know all the juicy details.
Last night I had fun, I went to a halloween party. I didn't have the time or the resources to get a costume, so I put on my new pink floyd t and went, luckily for me, everyone else froze their ass off in their costumes on the keg/smoking porch, and I had a coat. I played a lot tippy cup, which I rule at....
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fyrestarter:
awww, shucks....
Guess what friends, now I have piercings! I got my nipples pierced. I'm really excited, wanted to do it for a while. They're a bit sore, but look pretty good. The one bled like crazy for a while. It hurt, but no more than getting plasma drawn, which I can't do for a while now.
By the way, check out Llona's new set, she's beautiful.
By the way, check out Llona's new set, she's beautiful.
hotcurry:
Horray for newly pierced nipples. Congrats! 
fyrestarter:
hi..my oops was about the picture i tried to post, but it turned out WAY too big. hahaha i am experiencing technological difficulties.
Umm, yeah. Hi.
fyrestarter:
purrrrrr..... 
from a sexy, sexy redhead.
from a sexy, sexy redhead.
Ohmigod-ohmigod-ohmigod! Reagan is my new SG friend, and she invited me! Ok, enough being gay, but I am totally excited. Reagan is my favoritest SG super-hottie. Thank you Reagan, I'm ready to be a captain in your zombie army.
I finished painting my apartment and cleaned it. You can actually do stuff in it. And, with my electricity bill paid, I can have company. What's...
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I finished painting my apartment and cleaned it. You can actually do stuff in it. And, with my electricity bill paid, I can have company. What's...
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jburhite:
Instead of making a new journal, I decided to comment on my own. I hate my mood swings. I had a great weekend, now I've spent the last 24 hours or so talking myself out of killing me, I hate it, it tears me up inside. But, I'm just so tired right now, I want to quit everything. I'm hanging on to my last bit of will power. I'm forcing myself to go to class, even though I really just want to sleep all day.
I guess when I feel this way, sleeping is like being dead. Isn't it Orpheus, the greek god of sleep? I think I remember from Odisseus some line between him and another god, how Orpheus was saying that he was helping mankind by letting the rest everyday from their toils, while this other god was saying that he was just giving them a little taste of death.
This morning I went to the campus counseling office, made an appointment. Maybe they can help, I'm all out of ideas. I've been doing some reading, maybe I need a different medication, Lexapro doesn't seem to help. I have no ambition, and I don't feel much of anything at all. I don't like it. I havn't taken any for a couple weeks, but it seems I should get back on it. Better to be a shiftless hushk than a shiftless corpse?
I think I just need some love. Sounds whiny and gay, I know, but I feel so alone, you know? Its kind of hard to get somebody to care for you when you mope around though; its kind of a cyle. its also kind of hard to compete when you go to big uni. that saturates the market with better looking, more confident, charismatic guys. I'm just a fat, mopy, shut in loser, in risk of flunking out and killing himself. Who wants to deal with that shit.
Oh well, give me 12 hours i'll be chipper again, then perhaps in another12 hours after that I'll suck again.
I guess when I feel this way, sleeping is like being dead. Isn't it Orpheus, the greek god of sleep? I think I remember from Odisseus some line between him and another god, how Orpheus was saying that he was helping mankind by letting the rest everyday from their toils, while this other god was saying that he was just giving them a little taste of death.
This morning I went to the campus counseling office, made an appointment. Maybe they can help, I'm all out of ideas. I've been doing some reading, maybe I need a different medication, Lexapro doesn't seem to help. I have no ambition, and I don't feel much of anything at all. I don't like it. I havn't taken any for a couple weeks, but it seems I should get back on it. Better to be a shiftless hushk than a shiftless corpse?
I think I just need some love. Sounds whiny and gay, I know, but I feel so alone, you know? Its kind of hard to get somebody to care for you when you mope around though; its kind of a cyle. its also kind of hard to compete when you go to big uni. that saturates the market with better looking, more confident, charismatic guys. I'm just a fat, mopy, shut in loser, in risk of flunking out and killing himself. Who wants to deal with that shit.
Oh well, give me 12 hours i'll be chipper again, then perhaps in another12 hours after that I'll suck again.
I'm bored, and horny.
fyrestarter:
well hello. i haven't visited SG in a while.
bored and horny? it happens to the best of us.
write to ya soon!!
mel
bored and horny? it happens to the best of us.
write to ya soon!!
mel
I need soemthing new up. Well, I have a cabin update, door is in, stairs are done, sheeting almost finished: ALMOST DONE It actually looks like a building, a kind of shitty building, but its very good considering me and my brother built 99 percent of it and we've never done any construction before.
Forgive me because I'm drunk:
I went to a bar tonight for a freinds birthday. I saw this cover band, Kentucky Fried Mullet, they're very entertaining. But, I still feel like I want to put a gun between my teeth. This girl, whose birthday it was, I like. We met at a freind's party once. I messed around with her, but I don't think she...
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I went to a bar tonight for a freinds birthday. I saw this cover band, Kentucky Fried Mullet, they're very entertaining. But, I still feel like I want to put a gun between my teeth. This girl, whose birthday it was, I like. We met at a freind's party once. I messed around with her, but I don't think she...
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jburhite:
God, maybe this is why I don't have a girlfriend. I'm a fucking psycho. Last night didn't seem that bad to me now. This is the reason why people with problems with depression shouldn't drink half a gallon of rum and coke (but it was mason jar night and it only costed 6 bucks) plus lots of beer. I was gonna erase this journal but I decided to leave it up for posterity or at least to let people know what kind a nut I really am. Why can't I just take my meds like I"m supposed to; becuase I'm too lazy and forgetful. The band was killer fun. They even did Ice Ice Baby, it was so cool.
Jeremiah
Jeremiah
<cough-cough> I've picked up some sort of nasty chest cold. I have to breathe shallow otherwise i go into a coughing fit, which produces a good mouthful of thick lung-butter. Plus my breathing sounds like death, all wheezy and shit. I'm going up to my dads this weekend, I think we'll finally be finished. It will be nice to get that off my mind.
hotcurry:
You poor thing. I hope you feel better soon.
I'm glad this week is here, last week was kind of hellish. I had a final review for architecture, so I had to pull a couple allnighters to finish becuase they had us go on a 4 day field trip 3 days before the review. Then my computer decided to eat some drawing files and I got screwed. But I can breathe again. I went...
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