Argh, fuck money. Being poor blows.
I want to be with Melissa, this is the 21st century, where is the tube technology that will transport me to virginia in the blink of an eye? Held up by big oil lobbyists no doubt. How can I stand to wait till March to see her? I'm already prancing around like a kindergartner who needs to go to...
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I want to be with Melissa, this is the 21st century, where is the tube technology that will transport me to virginia in the blink of an eye? Held up by big oil lobbyists no doubt. How can I stand to wait till March to see her? I'm already prancing around like a kindergartner who needs to go to...
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cricket:
very funny. . . . ..i think 
fyrestarter:
i bet melissa wants to be with you as well.
Well its nice to be on a break. But I have work to do. My bro came up to visit this weekend, we didn't do shit b/c we're both broke as hell, but it was nice to see him. I put up a few more pics of mine to look at. Enjoy.
fyrestarter:
mmeeaowww.... 
i enjoyed the new pics. especially the one for me!! so is that small sculpture yours? i like it. that style would be nice cast in bronze.
i enjoyed the new pics. especially the one for me!! so is that small sculpture yours? i like it. that style would be nice cast in bronze.
hotcurry:
heehee... I didn't think of it until you brought it up. but yeah, I suppose so.
jburhite:
Pics and images of my projects
God, I wish I knew why I get so depressed. My doctor was telling today about how everyone develops these core self beliefs, some good some bad, and people choose to remember certain experiences that validate those core beliefs. This just totally struck a cord with me, like an epiphany. Some of these memories that I have, that hurt so bad, but when I look...
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fyrestarter:
it seems to me that it's all in your head...because i am finding out you are awesome. i used to have a problem with self image. my grandad did some really fucked up shit to me, and i didn't think i was worth the shit you scrape off your shoe for a long time. 
but i'm not that way anymore. i am glad you are feeling better these days!!
talk to ya soon...
i used to have a problem with self image. my grandad did some really fucked up shit to me, and i didn't think i was worth the shit you scrape off your shoe for a long time. but i'm not that way anymore. i am glad you are feeling better these days!!
talk to ya soon...
I'm horribly depressed. I cut my arm up with a broken shot glass at the bar. I'm so pathetic, I get so torn. erin doesn't seem to care about me. i can't take it, I wanna die. why cant I get someone to love me, it would make me so happy to have someone ask me about my day2day, to sleep with me, to scratch...
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jburhite:
what I've done to myself
I'm bored, theyre putting in ethernet wiring and they're making hella noise, how am I supposed to sleep until 5 oclock? I woke up really horny today. I'm tired.
I'm been primping and quaffing for the past couple days for my date tomorrow. Its been along time since I've been on a date of any kind. I hope things go well. Dinner and drinks, sounds good to me. Its hard to pick where to go to eat here, most dining establishments in this town are fast food becuase of all us college kids. I...
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fyrestarter:
so how did it go????? let me know all the juicy details.
Last night I had fun, I went to a halloween party. I didn't have the time or the resources to get a costume, so I put on my new pink floyd t and went, luckily for me, everyone else froze their ass off in their costumes on the keg/smoking porch, and I had a coat. I played a lot tippy cup, which I rule at....
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fyrestarter:
awww, shucks....
Guess what friends, now I have piercings! I got my nipples pierced. I'm really excited, wanted to do it for a while. They're a bit sore, but look pretty good. The one bled like crazy for a while. It hurt, but no more than getting plasma drawn, which I can't do for a while now.
By the way, check out Llona's new set, she's beautiful.
By the way, check out Llona's new set, she's beautiful.
hotcurry:
Horray for newly pierced nipples. Congrats!
fyrestarter:
hi..my oops was about the picture i tried to post, but it turned out WAY too big. hahaha i am experiencing technological difficulties.
Umm, yeah. Hi.
fyrestarter:
purrrrrr.....
from a sexy, sexy redhead.
from a sexy, sexy redhead.
Ohmigod-ohmigod-ohmigod! Reagan is my new SG friend, and she invited me! Ok, enough being gay, but I am totally excited. Reagan is my favoritest SG super-hottie. Thank you Reagan, I'm ready to be a captain in your zombie army.
I finished painting my apartment and cleaned it. You can actually do stuff in it. And, with my electricity bill paid, I can have company. What's...
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I finished painting my apartment and cleaned it. You can actually do stuff in it. And, with my electricity bill paid, I can have company. What's...
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jburhite:
Instead of making a new journal, I decided to comment on my own. I hate my mood swings. I had a great weekend, now I've spent the last 24 hours or so talking myself out of killing me, I hate it, it tears me up inside. But, I'm just so tired right now, I want to quit everything. I'm hanging on to my last bit of will power. I'm forcing myself to go to class, even though I really just want to sleep all day.
I guess when I feel this way, sleeping is like being dead. Isn't it Orpheus, the greek god of sleep? I think I remember from Odisseus some line between him and another god, how Orpheus was saying that he was helping mankind by letting the rest everyday from their toils, while this other god was saying that he was just giving them a little taste of death.
This morning I went to the campus counseling office, made an appointment. Maybe they can help, I'm all out of ideas. I've been doing some reading, maybe I need a different medication, Lexapro doesn't seem to help. I have no ambition, and I don't feel much of anything at all. I don't like it. I havn't taken any for a couple weeks, but it seems I should get back on it. Better to be a shiftless hushk than a shiftless corpse?
I think I just need some love. Sounds whiny and gay, I know, but I feel so alone, you know? Its kind of hard to get somebody to care for you when you mope around though; its kind of a cyle. its also kind of hard to compete when you go to big uni. that saturates the market with better looking, more confident, charismatic guys. I'm just a fat, mopy, shut in loser, in risk of flunking out and killing himself. Who wants to deal with that shit.
Oh well, give me 12 hours i'll be chipper again, then perhaps in another12 hours after that I'll suck again.
I guess when I feel this way, sleeping is like being dead. Isn't it Orpheus, the greek god of sleep? I think I remember from Odisseus some line between him and another god, how Orpheus was saying that he was helping mankind by letting the rest everyday from their toils, while this other god was saying that he was just giving them a little taste of death.
This morning I went to the campus counseling office, made an appointment. Maybe they can help, I'm all out of ideas. I've been doing some reading, maybe I need a different medication, Lexapro doesn't seem to help. I have no ambition, and I don't feel much of anything at all. I don't like it. I havn't taken any for a couple weeks, but it seems I should get back on it. Better to be a shiftless hushk than a shiftless corpse?
I think I just need some love. Sounds whiny and gay, I know, but I feel so alone, you know? Its kind of hard to get somebody to care for you when you mope around though; its kind of a cyle. its also kind of hard to compete when you go to big uni. that saturates the market with better looking, more confident, charismatic guys. I'm just a fat, mopy, shut in loser, in risk of flunking out and killing himself. Who wants to deal with that shit.
Oh well, give me 12 hours i'll be chipper again, then perhaps in another12 hours after that I'll suck again.