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Wednesday Dec 31, 2008

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As the new year approaches and a new beginning is seen just over the horizon I can't stop and wonder about everything that has happened this year. Don't they say that in the end your mind goes back to the beginning. Well that is exactly where my mind took me as I ran round the barwon river today working off the christmas lunch still sitting in my stomach.

Every new year in the past has moved on with no great intrigue, just an excuse for a party and a way for me to once again announce to everyone that my resolution is too lose weight and find what i want to do in life. This year for the first time I am actually proud of my achievements and believe that this new year is indeed something of great importance.

2008 will always hold special in my heart as the year I woke up. It saddens me to know that this only came around as a result of life being at its lowest and me wanting to get out. It came about by my mother seeing my depths of despair and telling me that I just needed to get away. So as I looked for a variety of ways to escape I stumbled across summer camps in the US. I know to most people you will see this as nothing more than a playful time away from real life, but for me this is how I started to wake up to myself.

I applied for camp and was placed quite quickly in the role of head theatre counsellor in upstate newe york. along the way I actually found and held a fulltime job up until i left (big feat for me) convinved my friend to go to a camp aswell and also decided to travel around europe and thailand for over a month after camp. I got on a plane by myself and headed off to find what I had been missing for so long. myself. yep this story is a corny self discovery tale. But as corny as it comes across, it is very real for me. I have never been as happy in my life as I was when I was away.

I had never ever thought I would leave Australia let alone my home town. So this was a mammoth feat in itself. not only did I achieve this this year I also fell in love a number of times, found true friendship in some very unexpetected people, saw the world through different eyes, played in the mud, went skinny dipping, saw so many special places in the world that everyone knows of, and saw some very special places that only hold significance to a few.

The new year has not began yet so I dont wish to share my hopes and plans unitl then, This year new years eve holds special significance to me. I am not wasting it!

Maybe every year always had signifacance behind it but I was just to distracted to see it.

on a lighter note I hope we all have a fantastic night full of sexy hot people pouring champange over their bodies and dancing to the sound of pots and pans, fireworks and the light of sparkers and fairy lights.

You are all Beautiful and I love you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DRINK UP! CHEERS XOXO

elizadoolittle:
Thankyou Jaz
Jan 2, 2009

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