well, christmas was great but i am glad its over. all i wanted was the time with my family, not all the rushing and gift buying and craziness! plus i had to work christmas eve, christmas day, and the day after, two of which were midnight shifts. i mean... i ran on coffee and pure adrenaline for three days. no sleep- just work, drive here, work, drive there, work... and none of these places are close. no no. one, two, three hours away. it was good to be with family, but man! im still exhausted! i just dont understand why people go so nuts over gift buying. running around stores, beating down other customers, lol. it just doesnt make any sense to me. is everyone really that materialistic now-a-days? i did get enough christmas money to pay my rent though, haha! 
i got to spend some glorious time with my family, although it was not nearly long enough. i am so happy i was able to squeeze in all of them
i even got to see my aunt who has been battling cancer for nearly 8 years now. she lives in florida and continues to get sick, and it just worries me so much that i cannot afford to fly out and see her, you never know when i wont get the chance anymore. but she was at my aunts house christmas eve and i was so surprised and so happy i almost cried. i spent most of my time with her. and my papa who is pushing 75 was there i just love my family so much, they can take me out of any mood and just make me so happy and so thankful for what i have. my dad and i even talked, and he apaologized for not helping as much as he could... something my dad has never ever said to me. i was floored. he brought my little brother and sister, who i havent seen in so long. playing with them just brought tears to my eyes. i love them so much. and i was able to drive all the way home to holland to spend christmas day with my mommmy and jeff
aside from all that, i am happy im back home in el (with dave). new years is coming up- possibly the first one where i will be drinking and partying with friends, and will have someone to kiss me when the ball drops
i think thats all i just might get up off of my ass and go shopping today though, got some gift cards to take care of 
although.... i might just do it from my computer lol because i am just that sweet 
i got to spend some glorious time with my family, although it was not nearly long enough. i am so happy i was able to squeeze in all of them
i even got to see my aunt who has been battling cancer for nearly 8 years now. she lives in florida and continues to get sick, and it just worries me so much that i cannot afford to fly out and see her, you never know when i wont get the chance anymore. but she was at my aunts house christmas eve and i was so surprised and so happy i almost cried. i spent most of my time with her. and my papa who is pushing 75 was there i just love my family so much, they can take me out of any mood and just make me so happy and so thankful for what i have. my dad and i even talked, and he apaologized for not helping as much as he could... something my dad has never ever said to me. i was floored. he brought my little brother and sister, who i havent seen in so long. playing with them just brought tears to my eyes. i love them so much. and i was able to drive all the way home to holland to spend christmas day with my mommmy and jeff
aside from all that, i am happy im back home in el (with dave). new years is coming up- possibly the first one where i will be drinking and partying with friends, and will have someone to kiss me when the ball drops
i think thats all
i just might get up off of my ass and go shopping today though, got some gift cards to take care of although.... i might just do it from my computer lol because i am just that sweet
Hope ytou have a great new year.
Later
ps. If I don't see you before the new year this is for you