jayye

well.. i had another wonderful night with dave. he came to get me, we went to the bar, i played darts and watched the guys play pool. we went back to his place again and watched tv... and layed in bed until 230pm today. i could just lay in bed with him and do nothing, forever.

im scared
very happy
but very scared

im really apprehensive about this whole thing. i dont want it turning out like... jude. it would just kill me.

im just going to force myself to not get crazy and attached, and take everything with a grain of salt.. like a normal person does.

but oh... i want to be a girlfriend again. its my addiction


ps. sorry i wasnt at crunchys last night ben- and the rest of them- that would be backus' fault.