jayye

work was ridiculously draining today. but i deserved it i guess- i didnt even go yesterday. part of it was because it was really cold and windy, and my bike was frozen over, but the other part was because i just didnt feel like it. everyone gets to be with their family on thanksgiving... but not me. i got to sit in my apartment and eat a bowl of cereal for dinner. it wasnt even good cereal, either. it was discount stuff, because thats the only stuff i can afford, and it tastes like crap. i miss my mom. shes in tennessee with jeff and my grandma to visit my aunt and little cousins. i wish i could have been there. my mom and i used to go to tennessee all the time when my parents first got divorced. we'd spend literally the whole summer there with my aunt and my little cousin. it was so much fun. i wish i could be little again and just spend every day with my mom.

i hate my job more and more every day. but some days, like today, its not too bad. i ran cardboard for about 4-5 hours today, so i was basically the garbage bitch. but i liked it better than being on the floor and doing my stupid job. its nice and cool in the back room and theres no stupid customers. plus, i like the grocery boys theyre fun. i cut my hours down, too, so hopefully i wont be so tired/sick all the time, and i can actually go out on saturday nights again.


i think something bad is wrong with me