jayye

im so tired
im so sore
i feel so so so so sick
im overworked and underpaid
i havent slept more than ten hours all week
all i want to do is cuddle up with ben and sleep for days
but im too busy, and i cant stop doing anything because i am poor and i need to work
i feel fat, real real fat
im unhealthy
my head hurts constantly
my feet hurt so bad
i have to pay for school/rent/everything else myself, i have three jobs, and it still doesnt cover everything

i had a dream about jude last night, and i havent been able to stop thinking about him all day. i looked at a picture when i got home, and got the sick feeling in my stomach all over again. will i ever get over this?? it seems like everytime its about to go away, something happens to bring it all back again
and i have to go in to american eagle to get paid and pick up more hours... i havent seen jude in at least 2 months... :/


i am a sad camper
sorry for complaining