jayye

humpf.

i went in to work today @ 6am, found out around 10am that i had the day off. awesome. so i have tomorrow off now instead... so hopefully i can go out with dave tonight and drown my misery in alcohol. dennys called me i think so i have to set up an interview, and i still havent decided about going back to aladdins....
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better? maybe.

i was at daves, and my dad called. my first thought? someone must have died. thats a horrible thing to think, but i cant remember the last time i talked to my dad unless there was something he needed, or i needed, or we had a funeral to go to. my dad and i ... just arent buddies. but he called- dave said...
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and just like that is comes crashing down.
my mom just called me crying because my phone is going to be shut off. neither one of us can afford to pay the bill.
i cant pay my rent this month, dont know what im going to do. i cant even afford to buy my mother a chrismas present. and she was in the hospital this...
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well.. i had another wonderful night with dave. he came to get me, we went to the bar, i played darts and watched the guys play pool. we went back to his place again and watched tv... and layed in bed until 230pm today. i could just lay in bed with him and do nothing, forever.

im scared
very happy
but very scared

im really...
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ohhh i see, my last entry wasnt good enough for any comments. what, was it too long to read? sheesh


all ive done today is listen to really loud music, and get dolled up for tonight- it better not be a waste!!

i wish i had a digital camera to take a million pictures a day !! but i dont even a cheap one would...
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man... i hate the feeling of being anxious. i had a great night, and a great morning, and sunday was just fine... but now im in that waiting period.... and its driving me crazy! im trying not to be a nutbar, but i cant help it. i think it will turn out just the way i want it to, more or les, but still. these...
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eeeeeeeee!

so happy

one of the best nights of my life, without a doubt. and definitely the best morning

im not gonna lie, i am just blown away... man am i in trouble

he said my eyes were absolutely enchanting.
enchanting


sigh <3

top ten celebrity crushes right now:

10. conan obrien
9. cara from rw/rr challenge
8. johnny knoxville
7. the lead singer from "the the"
6. josh lucas
5. joaquin phoenix
4. hal sparks
3. dave navarro
2. dermot mulroney
1. mark from rw/rr challenge

ok so

hot vendor boy at meijer
handsome store director at meijer (who happens to be a dick, which makes him more sexxy)
adorable guy on the bus
and cutest teller ive ever seen in my life (who just happened to be flirting with me) at the bank

oh.. and dave

sex
drive
is
back

whoop whoop.

oh hot damn!
ive got myself a date, with the cutest boy from meijer. no, ever. the cutest boy ever.
*swoon*


and halsparks is super magnificantly hott
i mean, geeze

im back!
on a shitty desktop

meijer cut my hours, so i get to go find a THIRD job now. just to make rent. its a wonderful life my ass.
i went home over the weekend because i was sick, and on lots of meds, etc. baked christmas cookies with my mom, hung the remaining christmas decorations, listened to christmas music, watched the grinch i...
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