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jaytan

Upstate NY

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Friday Aug 25, 2006

Aug 24, 2006
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It's really stupid of me to update at this hour, as my lack of sleep really retards my effectiveness the next day. And on top of that, all of my thoughts to eschew here have since dissipated into the air. What the hell was I going to talk about?

My parents are coming into town this weekend for a wedding. They'll stay with me for 1 night and with the groom's parents (close friends of my folks / my pseudo-Aunt and Uncle) for the other 2 nights. I probably shouldn't be put off by this, but I am. Granted, it's less inconvenient than if they stayed with me the whole time, but I just think there's something wrong with family not staying with family when they're in from out of town. Call me old fashioned; I get along (relatively) with them, and it's now the time when I should be hosting them, but they'd rather stay out and play with old friends. It's ironic, really -- my old parents are now young'uns who want nothing to do with me. They'd rather sleep over at their friends' house than stay at the family home. I remember those days --- and now I realize how much a kick to the balls of family pride it can be. Enh.

Big things are happening at work -- soon. Man, hurry up and wait sucks. I'm finna do it again.

I'm getting laid these days. Got a Friend With Benefits situation going on, and although I could easily overthink it, I'm generally just going with the flow of it, which seems to be keeping the boat steady. There's still the girl I'm into who isn't having it (though we remain good friends) and I'm getting set up with someone pretty soon. This is what I wanted. This is why I wanted to get out of my relationship. Is it all it's cracked up to be? No, I miss our good times, and I hate that we're not friends. But this is what I wanted, and in the end, I am glad that I have what I wanted. Better to experience this and get it out of my system than commit, settle down, and always wonder What If? The lack of stability and reliability is frustrating and lonely -- I remember very well what its like to feel like there's nobody in your corner. I acknowledge that I could end up there again at any point without even realizing it, and I'm not worried about standing on my own, but clearly, having a tag team partner is the be-all-to-end-all.

Why does everybody else say "end-all-be-all?" I think I got my version from Gorilla Monsoon. I like mine better anyway. S'annoying when people look at me like I'm crazy for not saying it right. I get shit for "cat of a different breed" too.

I'm gettng much more comfortable with this SG community. I've been on here for awhile and only until recently have limited my interaction to online involvement. I know it was the relationship that was preventing me from exploring it previously. She didn't know about SG and wasn't cool with it when she did find out about it. Now, its the job which prevents me from being more social. Not that I'm complaining, as I love my career, but I do like meeting new folks at the monthly drinks and hope to get to know the SGLA group better. Peace to Flux for recognizing me, and doctashock, Mrs_Misha, EricAllen, EnglandAway, and Bigdaddyfix for the welcoming and conversation.

I've discovered Cartoon Network recently. For a few months now, really, and I can't get enough of Fred Fredburger (obviously), Foster's Home for Imaginary Friends, and The Boondocks. She liked Foster's a lot, and we both discovered Fred when we watched the same episode separately but at the same time and we later joked about it. Those were The Good Times. I know that's why I like these shows. Nothing wrong with happily reminiscing about The Good Times, I figure. . . yes, as long as I'm sincerely working to move on, and I feel I am.

As for The Boondocks, the shit is just fuckin' funny. I was Huey back in high school. Yes, I know I'm not Black. And yet, that was me. Peace to Bobby Seale, Chuck D, and Huey P. Freeman.

Somebody know if there's a bookmarks function on this site? I"ve never been able to figure it out.

Fiending for the next Brother Ali album to drop. Ugh, early next year? Shit! Peace to the Ock.

Peace to Annisa, Sky, and Sunshine for some fiercely EL SUICIDO LOCO sets.

Now y'all quit lurkin' and SAY SOMETHING.
VIEW 7 of 7 COMMENTS
doctashock:
I could use a friend with benefits these days
Aug 30, 2006
redvillain:
i'm not invovled in the suit i just got some saying i could get money for it

what's you myspace name?
Sep 4, 2006

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