jaytan

Today, a friend came in from out of town. He traveled a long distance to sort out some drama that was going down among the friends and loved ones that he'd left. There is a lot of mistrust, anger, frustration, and confusion, and unfortunately, a seemingly unfair part of it is directed at him. It's my privilege that he's crashing at my place, as I get to demonstrate that there is at least one person in his corner. He's hurting like I still hurt over my breakup, although ironically enough, I empathize moreso with the girl he's lost amidst all this drama.

She and I recently have started to rebuild our trust and friendship, which was damaged over a separate fallout. This doesn't affect my friendship or loyalty to anyone, nor will it speed up the healing process for them either, I don't think. In some ways, he's getting his come-uppance, and he knows he's got it coming to him. He's taking it like a man, which is good. Likewise, he got some vindication today from someone at the core of this scandalous situation.

Over the past six months, there has been a lot of stress and change in my personal life. These people are a part of it. What I find very interesting as I compare the various "dramas" and the feelings of the people involved on a whole is that everybody is saying the same things --

"It's like s/he's a completely different person. This is not the person that I've known all these years."
"I don't think it's intentional, but what s/he did hurt nevertheless."
"I just can't do this anymore. I need to move on."
"Everything went downhill as soon as he left."
"I hardly ever go to the cafe anymore. Too much drama."
"Things are going to get worse before they get better."

I wonder where it will all end. And am I in line for that vindication too? I know, I can't expect it, but I also can't help but still need it. And yes, I know that means I'm not "over her." But I'm trying to. . .

I have a birthday coming up. My plan is to share it with a friend that I'm sweet on. That's all I want -- just a date with a nice girl. That'll be fine for this year.