This has been an emotionally topsy-turvy week. Wednesday was a double-whammy reality check for me. In the morning, a doctor's appointment confirmed that my cholesterol is up to "unacceptable" levels. Being diabetic, it's even that much more important that I stay diligent about my health, which I have to, as I like to phrase it, "varying degrees of success and failure." On one hand, I'm lucky to not need insulin or medication, but my weight and blood sugar has crept up in the past year or so, and the doctor does want to put me on mediction for the cholesterol. It's not the end of the world, but it is a sign that I have failed at something I knew better about. And I tend to beat myself up when I'm not as responsible as I should be.
The other reality check involved money and job. This year has been focused on finding a job at the "next level" of my industry, while trying to drum up some business of my own. Up to this point, neither has gone very well, and although I know in my heart it wasn't for a lack of trying, hindsight points to all the things I should have done but didn't, and I wonder if I didn't do them out of foolish pride. I rationalize my choices by the fact that it would have taken away from my efforts to move my career along, but again, its a sign that I failed to read the warning signs and should have known better to do things differently. Ironically enough, I do now have an opportunity to dive into a what-you-make-of-it gig that could prove to be a financial and personal success, although not for a long, long time. There will be double the struggle to get to that point of success, and if it doesn't happen at all, well, I'm sure I'll feel guilty about that too.
In other, more enlightening news, this
was a tremendous show. For anybody that isn't familiar with Atmosphere, I severely encourage you to check them out.
Wish I had more I was compelled to write about. Brother drama ~ Girl drama ~ I suspect those wounds will heal themselves, so long as I don't pick at the scabs.
New photos in the pics section. A few scenic shots I'm rather proud of. Check 'em.
Also, there's been a lot of fun and hot sets up, but the ones that stuck out in my mind are Slide, Nemesis, Niche, Hibiskiss, and the return of Rosanne. Thank you, ladies.
The other reality check involved money and job. This year has been focused on finding a job at the "next level" of my industry, while trying to drum up some business of my own. Up to this point, neither has gone very well, and although I know in my heart it wasn't for a lack of trying, hindsight points to all the things I should have done but didn't, and I wonder if I didn't do them out of foolish pride. I rationalize my choices by the fact that it would have taken away from my efforts to move my career along, but again, its a sign that I failed to read the warning signs and should have known better to do things differently. Ironically enough, I do now have an opportunity to dive into a what-you-make-of-it gig that could prove to be a financial and personal success, although not for a long, long time. There will be double the struggle to get to that point of success, and if it doesn't happen at all, well, I'm sure I'll feel guilty about that too.
In other, more enlightening news, this
was a tremendous show. For anybody that isn't familiar with Atmosphere, I severely encourage you to check them out.
Wish I had more I was compelled to write about. Brother drama ~ Girl drama ~ I suspect those wounds will heal themselves, so long as I don't pick at the scabs.
New photos in the pics section. A few scenic shots I'm rather proud of. Check 'em.
Also, there's been a lot of fun and hot sets up, but the ones that stuck out in my mind are Slide, Nemesis, Niche, Hibiskiss, and the return of Rosanne. Thank you, ladies.
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farhaad:
Big pro wrestling fan ey? hahaha. Last thing I watched was when they brought ECW back for that payperview in the summer. That was awesome.
stina511:
you caught me 