jayne

So how weird is it to hang out with friends from high school after you've all graduated and gone your seperate ways? Well, I could tell you since I just hung out with a girl from hs that i like more now than i ever did during school. It was strange but at the same time we've known each other for so long it's like we were never apart. Isn't that weird how that works...you can be gone from home for a year, or two, and when you go back it feels like you never left and you don't even think of your life away from what you are feeling at that moment. You know what I mean? I bet if you've been in the same situation, you do. I miss home once and a while, even though I a so close. It is scary to not know what is in your future and to not be sure of what you want to do with yourself. But at the same time it is so exciting that I could really do anything I wanted to! Sometimes I don't know if I believe that you know? It is so hard when there is nothing you excel at. I mean, I'm good at some things, but there is nothing that I am really great at. Which makes me sad, since most of the people that surround me are very talented. I am smart enough, and creative enough, and i am enough to get by; but how often is "enough" really enough to succeed? All I want is to be happy and successful enough to support myself and my passions. Who knows if it'll ever be.
xoxox