jayne

my mood is.....i don't know.
'is a draft around the corner?' that's what i just heard on the news previews.a draft??? i'm glad i'm moving, but that doesn't protect the men i care about that are still here. they're saying we went in unprepared....and now were in there, and we can't handle it, we're stuck. sounds like inflated ego by good ole' george fucking bush. fuckwit, think a little before you act.
i just got done watching e.r., dr. weaver lost her wife, and then their child was taken away from her by her wife's family. i know e.r. isn't real, but it breaks my heart. i guess i just know it happens all the time. whenever i start to cry, i can't stop, it just boils over.
i have so much to do before i move in 45 days. just when i feel like i'm getting things done, i feel at the same time, so stagnant and unmotivated. sometimes it's just hard to function when your heart is sad.
i made a list of things to do before i move, i've been ticking off at least one chore each day. but today i didn't check any. i need to get busy.
apparently the black man that was shot during a routine traffic stop a few weeks ago, has now been found to have a criminal record / reputation. seems as though they're trying to cover their asses for shooting some unarmed black kid.
can i please just curl up in bed and hide? i have four and a half weeks left of work. there's no time to curl up and run away between now and may 24th. i'll just have to do my best to give myself a kick in the ass.
sorry for the downer, i'll do my best to have a change of mood and a new journal entry soon.

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