jayne

tonight, it's classic indecision courtesey of yours truly. i can't decide what to eat, what do do w/ my work, what i should do at all. i hate that. my two weakest points, indecision and procrastination, and they're both haunting me this evening.
i'm a sick girl still, and i feel like shit. i have this weird pain in my chest, i can't tell if it's from hunger or because of some other unknown cause. i don't know, but i'm sick of my eyes getting all watery for no fucking reason!
i always think it's interesting when you meet someone, and then find out they have all these crazy similarities with you, it's very odd. but i feel like such a big girl meeting new people! i'm not so good at that, but in the last year, my skills have improved. which is good news for me.
things in my life are sort of all over the place, i've been running the gamut of emotions lately, which just sort of confuses me. sometimes staying strong is so hard, and something i'm honestly not accustomed to. usually i'd just let myself puddle on the ground, but i have to stay focused.
yeah. babble. sorry. i'm trying not to come undone. it's not easy.