Every time I go to Wellington, I look at my old school friends, most who never left the Hutt Valley and I wonder why I even bother doing what I'm doing. They all stayed in the Hutt, worked meaningless jobs, saved shit loads of money, traveled, came home, got engaged, got married, bought houses and had kids. I've spent the last 8 years or so getting educated, being shit ass poor, never left the country, have a 32 year old boyfriend who won't even move out of his parents house let alone consider some kind of long term future with me and I'm starting to think my life has been a huge fucking waste of time.
Let's face it, why have I bothered to get myself into a position where I can help others when it's meant that my life has ended up kinda rats. I should just be like everyone else, not give a fuck about the oppression of other members of society and just live for me. We are all going to die anyway. I'll never be able to save enough money to travel with what I do, it's just not well paid enough and never will be. It's thankless and fruitless and nothing is ever going to change because humans are scum. Including me, apparently.
I give up.
Let's face it, why have I bothered to get myself into a position where I can help others when it's meant that my life has ended up kinda rats. I should just be like everyone else, not give a fuck about the oppression of other members of society and just live for me. We are all going to die anyway. I'll never be able to save enough money to travel with what I do, it's just not well paid enough and never will be. It's thankless and fruitless and nothing is ever going to change because humans are scum. Including me, apparently.
I give up.
korbendallas:
Not all humans are scum. And if you're a good person life will pay you back 10 fold. Keep your head up lady.
horrorflick:
You're not allowed to give up. It doesn't get any better. Sitting on a shelf and feeling that others are pulling your strings is the lot of just about anyone intelligent enough to realize that you control or are controlled. Most people are not powerful or intelligent enough to be on the other side of the strings. What kind of long term future are you thinking about? Is it the 70-80 odd years you'll live if your genetic code holds out? That isn't even a blip. Try and do as much fucked up unusual shit as you can before you die. Either that or just sit home and surf the interweb and play video games.