jayhel

This morning I woke up to mist, clouds and cold. I really thought I was going to stay in bed, but Alas! After being away for a week I had a fuck load of work, so I just dug in at 7 seven this morning. My week in the mountains was great, I'm thinking of becoming one of those bearded mountain men, far away from civilization with no concerns, but my I-Pod will run out of batteries sooner or later. So what's been happening?

I'm so freaking erratable lately, I go from zero to crazy mad in a matter of seconds, the smallest things piss me off. I tried blaming various things from the cold to boredom, but it doesn't help. And these god dammed dreams. I dream the most fucked up shit. Everything from suicide to Armageddon and I wake up shaking. Why???? Maybe that's why I smoked so much pot, to keep that shit away. But I'm Dieting from the green still/again, I'm not sure anymore. But I don't want to rant and rave about shit.

Anyhow, I think I did about the nicest thing I ever done for someone today, My friend's car got stolen with his amp in it, so I actually gave him my amp. I just felt fuck it, his band is just getting there and his fucked without one, and his broke, and his a good friend. so I said, here take it, see it as an investment in our friendship. And it felt great, really. Maybe Karma will reward me in some way.

Oh and I'm so sexually frustrated it hurts. Lol, but it's true, I cant stop thinking about sex and nothing seems to satisfy, except football. I don't even like football, but it seems to help for something, Yippee FIFA on the play station is my sex life! (that's sarcasm). It seems to be the last thing on my girlfriends mind and she has really lame excuses, witch piss me off. But I don't want to be the sex crazed boyfriend, and if she's not into it, what's the point? Now I'm just rambling again...

So come on all you incredibly incredible girls, how does one seduce your own girlfriend??? Or is this the natural course of long term relationships?