jayden

More and more I find that this site may be "bad" for me, in the fact that right now I seem to be going through a post-adolescent bout of insecurity about my appearance. Seeing flawless and gorgeous women day after day, and observing the unabashed hero-worship that seems to be constantly going on around here irks me. Perhaps I am too immature to handle having a membership to a pornographic website, but I've been a member for over a year and it's just now getting to me. odd.

Last night I had a dream that Ted Bundy was my boyfriend. It was fucking cool, until he went nuts and started trying to kill me and my family. I need to stop reading serial killer books before I go to bed.

In other news, I wish I had money. Better yet, a job. I've been unemployed for a grand total of 2 days now and cannot shake this feeling of utter worthlessness. I need purpose to function, and without work or school there is no purpose, and I spend my days smoking ridiculous amounts of pot and vegging out in front of the vile, evil television.