jaybugg

I got drunk. Or rather am drunk. Been pretty much drunk all damn day in fact. (I should state I rarely drink) I was bored today so I was playing a game on facebook I haven't touched in a while. out of habit I also tried to send myself a gift from my ex fiance's account, as I used to.
Yeah don't do that. Goes...
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I decided that I need some form of therapy or I will self destruct.
I do not know if I am "depressed", anhedonic, or just consumed by the storm thats in my brain
Jenna calmed all of that, and though we may have had several negative emotions towards the end, I believe it was due to the situation and stress more so than us as...
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Sunday I hit my ten year mark in the military.

So far this week while driving down here to florida and in my off time from school, I have thought of three things; School, Jenna, and my last ten years. It's a big deal because it's the halfway point of a "career" for military for us.

To be honest, in my life just like everyone...
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in florida. too tired to type out humorous vignettes of my travel, and too despondent to care.

And I am off to Florida. See you Maryland.

Bind Laden is dead..Man this will be good water cooler conversation at work.

I felt like writing. Yes its in mass paragraph form, I leave it to you to break up as you are comfortable with, or uncomfortable with.

I am the beast the monster the one seething despair parting my hair for the phantasms in my head they are serpents dressed in red and...
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And how does my night end? Bin Laden is dead.

Fuck yeah.

so NOW I get to go to pensacola florida for 4 months, all expense paid.

Thank you military.

Leaving in a week.

And so it ends.

it was amacible, it was for the best, still friends, etc. etc. All that is very true.

But this break up still sucked more than anything I have ever been through.

The one person...The one girl I waited for, for years.

And an uncontrollable situation tears at us.

Gah. I dare not let out this growing thing inside.