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Things Jason Learned This Weekend
Let's just say THIS blog isn't going to be positive

My xbox sucks and I hope it dies a horrible death

FB has replaced just a nice phone call for birthdays (yeah that bit a big one)

I am considered a liar by someone who is no longer a friend. someone i loved deeply and would of married, over something she thought was about her and i couldnt convince her otherwise.

I have no real life friends, just friends who refuse to live in the same state as me. Before you say oh well go out and meet people. Fuck you, easier said that done for someone like me, seriously I don't deal well with socialities.

I am a self loathing, incorrigible bitter fuck.

I really do try and sometimes you just can't fix things. Don't give me that "Everything happens for a reason" shit. there is action and reaction that is it. I won't have my belief of having a will comprimised by something like fate. Fate takes all the responsibility out of people's hands.

I realized dissapearing to Afghanistan wouldn't matter much, hey if people can't call you on a birthday (which YES I feel birthdays are fucking important) then who cares if you drop off the Earth for months. And for once I may feel like I am worth while to myself.

And yet despite all the hardship, pleasure, pain and reward...Nothing really matters in the end,does it?