jaybugg

I must confess I just really don't care anymore.

It's not apathy, it's more of simple indifference.

I become anhedonic fairly quickly, with anything. I am unsure if this is depression, my social anxiety issues, blah blah blah, but even krav maga which i started and love, I find myself not caring if I miss a class. I do not care if I am going to Iraq, I don't mind if I don't talk to anyone for a great length of time, I simply exist, and everything else is just here around me.

Take this site. I just really don't care if people comment or message, which they really don't anymore. From others blogs, to sets, to private messaging.

I must confess though I just really want to go away, and in my case Iraq is the only way out, because truthfully given half the chance I'd sooner burn this whole world down. And being a gear in the war machine is just doing my little part in all that.

Or I am just a hermit and need fucking friends... *shrug* Friends unfortunately, don't really do it for me anymore. Weird part is I am sociable in small amounts, I am confident, I can probably get a laugh out of you, and I am fine with a bar, or lounge and watch movies...I just don't want to do any of that, with anyone..

*re reads all that* what the fuck is wrong with me? O_O