jaybugg

<3 if you ever are up for talking, i'm very much here for you <3 I'm still slowly recovering from things done to me the past few years that you already know about so i know where you are pretty much coming from.

When you can't walk you crawl. When you can't crawl, when you can't do that.....find someone who will carry you. Sometimes in life, life itself just seems to turn on us. There isn't a reason for this or some hidden purpose to make us better because of it. It is merely because life at times sucks. What we do during those times define us a person and gives us perspective to who we really are. I can't give you words to make your situation any better except to find that silver lining in all of this. Just like with our mutual female friend, I found two people that are pretty awesome and made sure I was alright during my time of need when the one person I wanted around still hasn't asked me how I am.

If you let yourself sit around and fill all that empty time with negative energy it makes it suck worse. We all have been there, that time in our life where we are sitting at rock bottom where we are so far gone we actually expect it to get worse. I won't say you control your own happiness, but you do control your level of suck. I am glad we talk, I'm glad we have started this unusual friendship, but with me I'm not a nurturer what so ever. I'm the swift kick in the ass, the tough love, and bit of an asshole friend. I have a feeling that when my time for this talk to come you will be nice enough to return me the favor.

Hey you are a hero because you fought for your country, don't be humble! Have a lvely day!

She was so gorgeous. I'm sorry for you're lose.

On new years eve 2009 going into 2010.
A parent of a friend was getting ready to round up and drop all the kids at his place off at their own homes. when my best friend at the time decided,he'd rather walk home to cool off from a fight earlier that night. When he never came home hours later, everyone spent hours looking for him. His older brother found him new years morning frozen to death outside in the snow. They say it wasn't foul play even though he was found shirtless and had previously been wearing one of his prized ICP jerseys that was never found. and had no drugs or alcohol in his system.

The sudden lose is truly tragic. Especially on the holidays. My heart goes out to you.

reading is good for the soul. can you recommend anything good?

Thanks. I'll look into those. I'm in need of a new read!