well that last journal has been up long enuff.
It is memorial day weekend and I have comfermed this weekend that I am a total asshole. What I really need is someone to compleatly annihilate my heart. I diserve it for the things I have done.
wait . fuck that.
fuck feeling guilty.
is not worth my time.
ah .... thats better. almost forgot feeling...
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It is memorial day weekend and I have comfermed this weekend that I am a total asshole. What I really need is someone to compleatly annihilate my heart. I diserve it for the things I have done.
wait . fuck that.
fuck feeling guilty.
is not worth my time.
ah .... thats better. almost forgot feeling...
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delilahb:
isn't chritina ricci the best. I so love her.
mislaid:
goodness gracious! What the fuck did you do?
Ambitious destinies coherse the fallen to conceed,
to being complacent with themselves,
a sigh of tedium escapes me ,
as I realize it will go on.
Safely...tucked away.. hiding behind goals
faith fades...to involuntary...habits of a cold
heart bends... forceing trends...of uninstinctual roles
crying dried...tears now...of an empty soul.
hollowed hopes blind the sullen of need,
to be more than a shell of whats concieved,...
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to being complacent with themselves,
a sigh of tedium escapes me ,
as I realize it will go on.
Safely...tucked away.. hiding behind goals
faith fades...to involuntary...habits of a cold
heart bends... forceing trends...of uninstinctual roles
crying dried...tears now...of an empty soul.
hollowed hopes blind the sullen of need,
to be more than a shell of whats concieved,...
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deviance191x:
thanks for the concern 
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deviance191x:
people seem to be having problems with that lately 
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delilahb:
I was just looking at your pictures: yeah, I miss hawaii.
delilahb:
I'm shocked and amazed too.
love the life that is given
because your time is ridden
by an unchanging charachter
with and unchanging lecture
that all existance is a gift
and all sighs should lift
only when given by a smile
if not
fear I, you wallow for a while
for it is the whims of a child
that makes you piss it all away
because your time is ridden
by an unchanging charachter
with and unchanging lecture
that all existance is a gift
and all sighs should lift
only when given by a smile
if not
fear I, you wallow for a while
for it is the whims of a child
that makes you piss it all away
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delilahb:
that's interesting. how's hawaii treating you?
jay81:
pretty good save for the fact that the sand refuses to ever leave my car
I must say that the older I get it seems the less new music I like. what is sad is when some of my old favorite musicians turn to shit. I hardly bother listen to anything new espicially with heavy music. perfect circle, korn, limp bizkit, and even other stuff alanis moresset, tori amos, even pearl jam fucking Ja rule and Dmx, all artist that...
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I am a spic. I am proud of that because I grew up with what I think is a healthy work ethic. As long as I am not crippled I know that I will never be truely hungry, and that takes all the edge off the future. But I fucked off in highschool and now Im putting up with more shit than anyone should have...
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How do you react to tradjety? Life has been handing some raw deals to a lot of people who are around me as of lately. When ever you hear about terrible things what should you say? I sorry? I just doesnt seem to cut it. may be in light of shit the best response is simply just to smile. You can not control anything except...
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I am paid
now I will go play
now I will go play
It is 10:26 I want to go to a bar but I fear that I may be the last person to still not get paid. Im officially on vacation and I feel like i am stranded on an island staring out at the happiness that the money that I should have recieved hours ago repriesents
jay81:
I will not have my own computer for another week so no IM until then