i wish i didnt think about things from absolutely every possible angle. i just don't know what to make of this girl, whether she is using me to buy drinks or if she is actually interested in me. we've known each other for years, i have been into her for as long as i've known her, but my buddy was dating her. we had not seen one another or talked for about a year (they had long since been apart), and i saw her at hell city in columbus, where we both live. we talked for a bit, then went our separate ways, but promised to get back together for coffee or what have you. so, we did. we have gone out a few times, i, of course, paying the whole way, which is fine. she is moving at the end of this week to some rural massachusettes town to be a middle/high school art teacher. she talks about being afraid that she won't be able to meet anyone out there, and i have expressed interest in getting the hell out of columbus. neither of us have said anything to the other about getting together, because it seems a little bit pointless if she is leaving. as i write this, i realize i sound pretty damn silly. i just don't know if im being used or not. its happened to me before, and im kinda on guard at this point. whatever, i guess it doesn't matter. :[
