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Thursday Nov 04, 2004

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Well, it seems that I am now in an inner battle of emotions.....
I'm stuck between wanting to follow my heart, and follow that which I know is right, intellectually. Intellect and experience says, I should walk away and continue on, avoiding the problems which will most certainly arise. Yet, my heart is feeling something it's only felt once or twice before, but it's mostly filled with hopes or an ideal that I desire, a fantasy sort of, that is most likely not obtainable in this circumstance. I've recently come to the conclusion, that in order to satisfy both sides of my emotions, I have to find a "balanced solution" of sorts. Follow my heart to a certain extent, exposing only so much before allowing my intellect and experiece to then take proper action, so as to say that I took a daring chance, but I didn't make myself the fool. The other person will then obviously have to tackle their own issues, ON THEIR OWN, before realizing what I had made available to them and taking hold of something truly wonderful....

Hopefully, when and if they see the light, it will not be too late.....
.....and above all else, I REFUSE to believe that I was not good enough....
girlordinary:
I'm thinking good thoughts for you. I dont know what's the better decision.. to follow your heart or what seems right.... they've both taken me down dangerous roads.
Nov 4, 2004

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