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Feeling a lot better, and at the same time not...

I have more contact with my friend again, and we're joking almost as before, but some subjects are diffucult, and we haven't seen each other for some weeks now, I have no idea of what I will feel when we do...

He is tricky to get close to, but I'm working on it, been reading about relationship anarchy, and a big part of me wish I could practice it, letting the people and relationships in my life be what they are, and not what I want them to be, but I'm having some trouble with it...I want so many things...

But me realising that I was poly, and the opening of our relationship, is a good thing, and I feel more free, so it's a good thing

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