jasperellah

I suck at going on dates. suck suck BAD. Why am i 23 and i still get shy when im around totally awesome, beautiful girls like the one i was on a date with tonight? I hate that. seriously. I spent majority of the night trying to figure out what i was going to say as opposed to actually saying anything at all. mean while time was flying and before i knew it she was half asleep, i was half drunk the other two girls we were on the double date with were half naked and the night was over, and i went home wondering why i always end up feeling like such an asshole.

I thought people grew out of that shy stage? I had so much i wanted to say to her, that i couldnt say anything at all. ... is that even remotly normal? she probably seriously thinks im an idiot.....maybe i am. who says to their date ' you have cute socks' ????? ....who? .....i do! ...i did. and they were!@$ Hah! And they were plain white socks.... whats my retarded deal?!?! denno.

i need ...dating therapy.... any takers?

i work too much.....