jasperellah

So, my g/f broke up with me today.

Boy are my relationships short... just gettn shorter and shorter. -Although it did last longer than a week.

We're still friends and stuff.. we're like bestfriends...so yah. She likes this mutual friend of ours named tyler, and he likes her. - i knew about this before i got into the relationship, but since shes bi, i thought id let her do what she wants, i was pretty sure of the outcome before i got into all of this, though its still a bit depressing.... more so i think its just the fact that i have such short lived relationships. Im just going about it in the wrong way. Hey, at least i agnoledge that fact, right? -but we're still really good friends, its just ..shes kinda straight... and we've been friends for over 2years, and i kinda knew she wasnt the type of girl to date...it was fun while it lasted though..... anddddddd *bow bow bow! another one bites the dust* hah.

I still miss carly though....always its SO weird to not be friends with an ex. its so normal to me always to remain friends. - i'll always miss her. and part of me will always wonder how many of the rumors i heard about things she had said about me, mean things.....were actually really something she really said. -she doesnt seem like the type. who knows. ill always miss her though. she was a cool girl. sad, things happend the way they did.

saw my ex b/f ryan last night at my bro and sis's bday party - he says he still likes me, which is kinda sad, because i really wasnt a good gf to him, i admit, and i asked him 'why do you still like me? i was a really bad gf?' he said he just does. -reason enough i guess.

there was this girl named danny last night who was totally checking me out, shelly and mel were teasing me about it all night! -but i was with karen then, so it was just funny. - flattering, even. - but i never cheat. -well, not never.. i have before.. but its a totally selfish thing to do, so i avoid it. - and i figure if you like someone, enough to date them they should be enough.. hah call me crazy. or old fashioned hah

so yah. thats pretty much it for today. lots of work going on lately... im excited. i need the cash. life.... what can ya do?

xoxoxo


LoVe,

Crystal