Ok, now i have more time to talk about all of this.....
Court was hell. -I pleaded not guilty. and have trial on the 5th of Febuary.
Called every car place in utah county after court, seriously a-z in the phone book. -And couldnt find my car. -Lots of hondas, just not the one i want. model, make year ect.
Havent been to sleep yet.... yah so its been like a couple days..... or close to it. beh.
im sleepy.
i was busy as hell today though. on the horn all day! with lawyers, and court, and car places, and the dmv -My license is suspended but ive figured that. -Iim paying the fee to get it back tomorrow.
Took 2 feet of snow off my car today, jumped my car and moved it to the back of the building. -im going to keep it i think and fix it up all by myself
and then sell it for more than i can sell it for now.
called a bunch of car places, and b/c of the miles on my car its only worth like 40 bucks at junk places, and i calle d a million.. the most i could get was like 175 as an estement and the place was in fuckn richfield!!!! good like 4 hrs away! right... be right there! not happening.
and i refuse to sell my car for 40 bucks only to have it smashed and never used again. its not in that bad of condition. -So, hopefully i can fix her up and maybe sell her or trade her in or add her to my 1000 buck deposit.
called my work to let them know ill be back wednesday ...
Found out that with my sisters crap and all that court stuff.... my sister could be facding 2 felonys...... lots of time in jail -So, im trying to find a ride to court tomorrow to talk to someone about it, because i have to go in tomorrow to talk to someone about it... the lawyer i spoke to said i will have to press charges against my 8 mo pregnant sister for fraud and then the states going to charge her with false imformation and impersonation. ...no fuckn good at all... I dont think ANYONE knows how hard this is either.... i ahte this.. id almost rather tell them to just take me to jail ..even though this was all my sisters doing..... cause id rather my nephew not be born in a jail sell.... or have to live in one before hes born... and the thought of pressing charges against my sister doesnt sound too appealing to me either. -this is the biggest mess ive ever been in, in my life.... im stressing out so bad... this is a really tough desision ya know? .....i love my sis man... and yah, she fucked up pretty bad by pretending to be me ...and going as far as going to jail in my name and lying to cops and shit... but, shes my sister ya know? ....and i have to choose between me goign to jail for this or her. and ive never gotten into trouble other thna like a fix it ticket or two... and yah.. i dont know.... its all too much, i feeel like im goign to have a nervous breakdown any day now. ..no one understands the pressure and guilt and everythign else im feeling.. and i hate it. And who knows how im going to get to the court house tomorrow to deal with all of this. but the lawyer said since ive taken so long to press charges against my sis that i could possably be in just as much trouble as her by now, since its been awhile since all of this happened. ..im scared to say the least. ANd i wish i had ONE fuckn good friend to do me this favor and take me to where i need to go before this gets any worse than it already is.
anyway..... so today was a busy day. Hopefully i can just get a loan soon so that i can just geta 98' honda and that be the end of it. ..im sick of looking for a car. its sad cause i want this stupid car that isnt a big deal car either.... its not brand new.. its a fuckn 96'! but its my stupid dream car.... hah... and i cant find it anywhere and when i do find it they say 'well we need 7,000' they wont work with me on payments whihc sucks.... they just want it all upfront...
Suzy and tenny droped by an hour ago because they wanted me to let them use my license, so suzy could get into the bar... tenny offered me 200 bucks.... and i turned her down.... pfftt like i need any more problems at this point.... im far too passive a lot of the time and i get taken advantage of a lot.... its true.. and thats how i get into thses fucked up situations... and i kept telling tenny 'no man im dealing with enoug right now, i would be stupid to let you use it' and she kept going for like 15 mins and i was like 'i cant, im sorry, you have to understand' and walked out of the room we were talking in...... then i felt bad.. but shit.. i cant deal with any thing else.. and i have enough going on with courts and laws and shit.... im not up for anythign else anymore, im completely drained. -i seriously considered taking an assload of my sdad pain pills today..... and sayn fuck it. But im stronger than that shit... its just tough times right now, i guess. that and i havent slept at all in days... so im super extra emotional. and have been like a fuckn bi-polar asshole for the past like 17 hours im mean to people and happy and sad and excited and im done man..... im drained... i cant possably feel another emotion if my life depended on it.
tomorrows going to be pretty busy as well. I hope i cna find someone to take me to the court house so i can get this all over with. :/
i dont know what to do...... this is seriosuly the hardest decision ive been faced with in my life. and i need a fuckn friend or two.. and all my friends dont understand..they say 'well put her in jail, she was stupid' .... mmmmkk.... sure.. except shes 8 mos pregnant and my sister and is facing a lonnnng time in jail and i have to be the one to put her there..... its not that easy when you have emotions. -Aand so many people are goign to hate me too.. her husband for sure, and hes a friend of mine.. and probably a lot of our mutual friends..... but fuck, what am i suppose to do?
anyway enough out of me....
ive been chain smoking all day too, which makes me sad, because i quit smoking... but ive been so stresed out, and its how im use to dealing with shitty situations... and this one has to be the shittiest ever.
meh
im just going to close my eyes..... and leave this confusion and stress behind for awhile... while i sleep.. and hopefully dream of something other than all of this shit.
xoxox
Court was hell. -I pleaded not guilty. and have trial on the 5th of Febuary.
Called every car place in utah county after court, seriously a-z in the phone book. -And couldnt find my car. -Lots of hondas, just not the one i want. model, make year ect.
Havent been to sleep yet.... yah so its been like a couple days..... or close to it. beh.
im sleepy.
i was busy as hell today though. on the horn all day! with lawyers, and court, and car places, and the dmv -My license is suspended
but ive figured that. -Iim paying the fee to get it back tomorrow.
Took 2 feet of snow off my car today, jumped my car and moved it to the back of the building. -im going to keep it i think and fix it up all by myself
and then sell it for more than i can sell it for now.
called a bunch of car places, and b/c of the miles on my car its only worth like 40 bucks at junk places, and i calle d a million.. the most i could get was like 175 as an estement and the place was in fuckn richfield!!!! good like 4 hrs away! right... be right there! not happening.
and i refuse to sell my car for 40 bucks only to have it smashed and never used again. its not in that bad of condition. -So, hopefully i can fix her up and maybe sell her or trade her in or add her to my 1000 buck deposit.
called my work to let them know ill be back wednesday ...
Found out that with my sisters crap and all that court stuff.... my sister could be facding 2 felonys...... lots of time in jail
-So, im trying to find a ride to court tomorrow to talk to someone about it, because i have to go in tomorrow to talk to someone about it... the lawyer i spoke to said i will have to press charges against my 8 mo pregnant sister for fraud and then the states going to charge her with false imformation and impersonation. ...no fuckn good at all... I dont think ANYONE knows how hard this is either.... i ahte this.. id almost rather tell them to just take me to jail ..even though this was all my sisters doing..... cause id rather my nephew not be born in a jail sell.... or have to live in one before hes born... and the thought of pressing charges against my sister doesnt sound too appealing to me either. -this is the biggest mess ive ever been in, in my life.... im stressing out so bad... this is a really tough desision ya know? .....i love my sis man... and yah, she fucked up pretty bad by pretending to be me ...and going as far as going to jail in my name and lying to cops and shit... but, shes my sister ya know? ....and i have to choose between me goign to jail for this or her. and ive never gotten into trouble other thna like a fix it ticket or two... and yah.. i dont know.... its all too much, i feeel like im goign to have a nervous breakdown any day now. ..no one understands the pressure and guilt and everythign else im feeling.. and i hate it. And who knows how im going to get to the court house tomorrow to deal with all of this. but the lawyer said since ive taken so long to press charges against my sis that i could possably be in just as much trouble as her by now, since its been awhile since all of this happened. ..im scared to say the least. ANd i wish i had ONE fuckn good friend to do me this favor and take me to where i need to go before this gets any worse than it already is.
anyway..... so today was a busy day. Hopefully i can just get a loan soon so that i can just geta 98' honda and that be the end of it. ..im sick of looking for a car. its sad cause i want this stupid car that isnt a big deal car either.... its not brand new.. its a fuckn 96'! but its my stupid dream car.... hah... and i cant find it anywhere and when i do find it they say 'well we need 7,000' they wont work with me on payments whihc sucks.... they just want it all upfront...
Suzy and tenny droped by an hour ago because they wanted me to let them use my license, so suzy could get into the bar... tenny offered me 200 bucks.... and i turned her down.... pfftt like i need any more problems at this point.... im far too passive a lot of the time and i get taken advantage of a lot.... its true.. and thats how i get into thses fucked up situations... and i kept telling tenny 'no man im dealing with enoug right now, i would be stupid to let you use it' and she kept going for like 15 mins and i was like 'i cant, im sorry, you have to understand' and walked out of the room we were talking in...... then i felt bad.. but shit.. i cant deal with any thing else.. and i have enough going on with courts and laws and shit.... im not up for anythign else anymore, im completely drained. -i seriously considered taking an assload of my sdad pain pills today..... and sayn fuck it. But im stronger than that shit... its just tough times right now, i guess. that and i havent slept at all in days... so im super extra emotional. and have been like a fuckn bi-polar asshole for the past like 17 hours im mean to people and happy and sad and excited and im done man..... im drained... i cant possably feel another emotion if my life depended on it.
tomorrows going to be pretty busy as well. I hope i cna find someone to take me to the court house so i can get this all over with. :/
i dont know what to do...... this is seriosuly the hardest decision ive been faced with in my life. and i need a fuckn friend or two.. and all my friends dont understand..they say 'well put her in jail, she was stupid' .... mmmmkk.... sure.. except shes 8 mos pregnant and my sister and is facing a lonnnng time in jail and i have to be the one to put her there..... its not that easy when you have emotions. -Aand so many people are goign to hate me too.. her husband for sure, and hes a friend of mine.. and probably a lot of our mutual friends..... but fuck, what am i suppose to do?
anyway enough out of me....
ive been chain smoking all day too, which makes me sad, because i quit smoking... but ive been so stresed out, and its how im use to dealing with shitty situations... and this one has to be the shittiest ever.
meh
im just going to close my eyes..... and leave this confusion and stress behind for awhile... while i sleep.. and hopefully dream of something other than all of this shit.
xoxox
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stacie:
what in the hell have i missed?!?!? What happened with you and your sister and the legal system??? *pet* *pet*
futt3rm31n390:
Sorry about your jurisprudence of Late, Miss Jasperellah. I'm coming back to SLC for Sundance on the 18th for a week. Sounds like you might be really Busy tho'..... 