jasperellah

I went with Anna and her cousin to the park last night ....something about burning down the moon. We're suppose to do it again tonight... who knows? shes the strangest girl ever. confusing confusing for my little scorpio mind...damn virgos hah ..seriously though, its always with virgos.

I dont know whats going on, and i feel like im in second grade again, and i dont like not knowing whats going on in my head at all times, it drives me insane.. i need to know whats going on at all times, and i need to know the how and why of everything..its just less confusing that way.... I dont even know if she likes me... because maybe its just a drunk thing...because she seems to like me fine when shes drunk, and when we're sober and around her cousin shes back to being confusing....Cinder says she doesnt think she likes me, and my friend kendra thinks she does like me....


so its far too confusing to go on this way, so im over it i quit with liking her, its retarded not ot know whats going on, and girls always have to give mixed signals... im not a typical girl, if i like you, you know about it theyrs none of this guessing busness

so yah, no more liking anna. or anyone else. i need a break, too much mind reading going on, on my part.

gah, ad what is this 'we're too good of friends to date' and this 'theyrs some people who are your friends and soem people who are more than your friends' crap? i swear eveyone has an excuse for not liking me... hah i mean yah, every now and then i get lucky and some straight girl seduces me while im spinning drunk and random girls kiss me at parties... but everyone has a reason for just wanting to be my friend.....

damn damn damn being a lesbian hah

and it's not like i care about getting laid at all, i mean granted im a scorpio and i should care, i guess.. i just dont...im more of a lameo hopeless romantic dorky kinda girl and i dont even know why all of this is bothering me now, because usually i just dont think about it, and it doesnt really matter... but for whatever reason it matters lately....

enough of me ranting..

oxoxox

-ps who remebers the song that goes 'Bad bad boys come wit me, come wit me' - i was watching untaimed heart last night and that song was in the movie, and i forget who sings it. its od skool ghetto shtuff yes, oh yes im a fuckn cheesey romantic film watcher... on my bad days.