It's cold in my house and the rain won't stop falling.i feel like a little kid staring outside the window wanting to go play outside.

anyone care to take a cold, poor, skinny kid out today for a good time?i need the motivation

My new years short an lame....basically a bottle of champange to myself thats it....woohooo!! oh and some party but it got broke up by the cops after 15 mins.no new years kiss either but oh well i don't think i ever had one of those anyway.i didn't even get a drunk phone call from anyone either

i really had a bad dream last night about my friend who just passed away.i was at the funeral where the casket was open and his body was just so hard to look at.all i can remember was his face like he was almost staring into me and saying help help...the walls all turned black and the casket just shut right in my face while slowly it was drifting from me away and away.i kept running at it tring to keep up but i couldn't make it no matter how hard i tried.....sometimes dreams can really be the painful moments you ever experiance.

rock and roll sunday school tonight and then taking cheshire out on monday night to the bars for her 21st birthday then off on tuesday to get tattooed and visit my sister.if any of you didn't see this on my last journal here is the piece im getting to finish out my arm.


2005..you better be good to me

jstar