jasonxstar

Alright in my last journal i mentioned i was going to do a suicide boys set,and i did,but it didn't come out the way i expected..taking pics of yourself naked is kinda hard ya know Plus i did them in black and white which didn't look so good.Im going to try again this week and take some color ones and see how they turn out.

It's really cold here and i think im getting sick

i had a few friends over the other night and one of my very best friends emily who i have known for 6 years came over.I kinda noticed she was really flirting with me and it's odd because out of the 6 years i have known her she never really showed any intrest in me until now.Since mostly everyone was drunk or high and couldn't drive home everyone just crashed at my place including her.I just remember the whole night she was cuddling me and tracing her fingers on my arms and back and to me it was just a little odd,not uncomfortable but you know when one of your best friends is putting the moves on ya it just is one of those wrid feelings.I know she wanted to kiss me but im kinda seeing this girl right now and mostly am more intimate with her then anyone else at this moment,even though we aren't dating and have really no commitment.But i know we really like each other and something like that is kinda holding me back from doing certain things with other people.Im not the kinda guy to mess with alot of girls,it just isn't in me,is this normal?i know something soon might come out of this but for now i feel it's more comfortable to REALLY get to know someone before you actually start beong more invloved with them..since i learned this from my last realtionship.So nothing happend just come cuddling and falling asleep with a lame hangover the next morning.

well time to have some coffee and cigarettes at the local coffee shop while i dry to wake up.

oh did i forget to mention
Odette is fucking so hot and beautiful? everyone go look at this amazing SG cus she rocks!