mood for today:very,very,down and out.
i have no reason why i feel like this today..there's just alot of things going on in my head lately and im sure alot of you are asking why im so down when i should be happy as ever that im moving in less then a week.i guess it's just one of those days ya know?
Alot of it has to be the emotions i am facing before the move and missing my GF way to much.i love her more then anything in this world and it really sucks that i can't talk to her as much and that there's alot of things going on down there that im not happy with but i guess im going to have to except it.
so it seems a person i am not really happy to know is going to be living in the same town as me when i get there and i really don't know to deal with it in alot of ways.of course my head is up high and i have no intentions on making a scene and starting some kind of bitter fued with this person.i have dealt with alot of things on my own over the years and i hate haveing grudges againest people.it seems my GF is very worried about this because the truth is this person is her very bestfriend.in alot of ways sometimes i feel like she really doesn't understand how i feel about all of this and hasen't made any kind of choice or tryed to make it better for me.everything i have done that was worried her or upset her i patch it up,i just hope if your reading this baby that you know i don't hate you in the slightest.
everyday i always wonder what your doing and im always hearing how much fun your having and that just gets me down i guess.in alot of ways im not going to lie to anyone,but im not a strong person.i let the smallest things get me down and i often look at myself and wonder "what the hell is wrong with me?" am i being a little to much of an worried ball of nothing?in the end i know i will have the best times of my life no matter who i am around and im going to to be there for my GF and for me and her family.
my heart is in canada and just want to thank everyone from SG who has been there for me and who knows what im going through,even if it seems like im losing my mind.
the beauty of taste is the fact that you'll never lose
move to canada in:4 days!!!
i have no reason why i feel like this today..there's just alot of things going on in my head lately and im sure alot of you are asking why im so down when i should be happy as ever that im moving in less then a week.i guess it's just one of those days ya know?
Alot of it has to be the emotions i am facing before the move and missing my GF way to much.i love her more then anything in this world and it really sucks that i can't talk to her as much and that there's alot of things going on down there that im not happy with but i guess im going to have to except it.
so it seems a person i am not really happy to know is going to be living in the same town as me when i get there and i really don't know to deal with it in alot of ways.of course my head is up high and i have no intentions on making a scene and starting some kind of bitter fued with this person.i have dealt with alot of things on my own over the years and i hate haveing grudges againest people.it seems my GF is very worried about this because the truth is this person is her very bestfriend.in alot of ways sometimes i feel like she really doesn't understand how i feel about all of this and hasen't made any kind of choice or tryed to make it better for me.everything i have done that was worried her or upset her i patch it up,i just hope if your reading this baby that you know i don't hate you in the slightest.
everyday i always wonder what your doing and im always hearing how much fun your having and that just gets me down i guess.in alot of ways im not going to lie to anyone,but im not a strong person.i let the smallest things get me down and i often look at myself and wonder "what the hell is wrong with me?" am i being a little to much of an worried ball of nothing?in the end i know i will have the best times of my life no matter who i am around and im going to to be there for my GF and for me and her family.
my heart is in canada and just want to thank everyone from SG who has been there for me and who knows what im going through,even if it seems like im losing my mind.
the beauty of taste is the fact that you'll never lose
move to canada in:4 days!!!
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thanks for stoppin by my set!