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Thursday May 03, 2007

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Hmm. I figured I'd be more upset.

See there's this girl at work, Sarah, whom I have a big crush on. She broke up with her BF last summer and like an idiot I took my time about asking her out and a few months later she got back together with the old BF. I fell into a pretty deep depression after that for a couple months. I eventually recover, especially after she took a different position at work where she doesn't need to interact with me as much.

The other day I stumble across the BFs myspace page. It says he's single. Curious, I threw his screenname into google and find a Match.com page, updated recently also single! I start to get my hopes up. Next time I see Sarah I ask her about her birthday plans (which is this Saturday) and she said she was just going to have dinner with some girlfriends and maybe go out to some bars for Cinco de Mayo. Hmm, I think to myself "If she had a boyfriend she'd be having dinner with him, not with friends"

So I come up with a plan. I got her a couple books (she's studying to be a librarian) and a card. I write on the card that we really need to hang out sometime and asks that she gives me a call. If she does, I ask her out on a proper date. The plan was to give her the cards and books tomorrow, Friday, since her Bday is on Saturday.

And then today she got flowers delievered to the office. They weren't exactly 12 long stem roses, but it was obviously an expensive set of flowers and not the kind your parents get you. Now I don't know who it was from. Could be a relative, the ex in a desperate move to get back with her, or a million other things. But my gut says it's a guy, and if he's willing to plunk the kind of change to do those kind of flowers, it's probably fairly serious.

And at first, I was upset about it. But, I dunno, now it doesn't bother me as much. I still plan on giving her the books and card, but if she doesn't call, or she's seeing someone, or if she says thanks but no thanks, it doesn't seem like a big deal anymore. If I'm mistaken and she's willing to go out, hooray, go me. If not, eh, no big deal. I wouldn't have said that a couple weeks ago. I'm not sure why but for the last few weeks my confidence has been going up and I've been feeling a lot better about myself. I'm probably in the best shape I've been in a while, Spider-Man 3 comes out tomorrow and I'm stoked, and well, I'm sick of feeling sorry for myself. I'm still the same shy, somewhat awkard guy I've always been, I'm just done feeling sorry about that.
kitsuneluvsyuki:
that's great that you're happy :-)

did you like spiderman3? i saw it at an imax theater, it was so cool!
Jun 3, 2007

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