so i really should be in bed, gathering dreams to carry with me through my work day tomorrow. i don't know what to do...i have a 'dream' job...mapmaking for an environmental non-profit...but i can't stand working on a computer for 8-15 hours monday through friday (all weekends not excluded)...it's just fucking with my head...but i love making maps sooo much...but then there's my music and my photography...the true loves of my life...i'm researching a new digital camera...and my main band is starting to get really serious...so who knows...i guess i just need to hold on, and keep running this dual life...work in the day, music/art/friends in the evening...how do any of us attain all of our dreams when we are forced to spend the majority of our lives working to pay our bills, and sleeping to recover from all of our work? but i'm excited, despite this little bitch session...life is at least never boring...nighty night
