How depressing...
Came home tonight, half-drunk, trying to get my key in the door lock. I gave out a big sigh and there it was. The huge misty cloud of CO2 purely visible escaping my lungs. Cold.
I know it's just a fluke. I know the hottest days of this summer aren't even here yet. The summer's best beach days haven't even arrived. The summer's best thunderstorms have yet to scare me. It was a reminder. All the partying I'm doing, all the nights spent out. All the times I go to bed when more then 3/4ths the eastern standard time is getting up to go to work... it reminded me that all glory is fleeting.
Within the next 5 weeks. I'll be back in school. Big Boy school Rowan University. Working my part-time liquor store job, going to school, going to bed at reasonable hours. I enjoy the freedom I have now. I enjoy wearing my camo shorts and matching shoes almost every day. I enjoy being hung over and passing out in my tube in the deep end of the pool, with the sun drenching my face with it's life-giving warmth.
It was a stark reminder that the crickets will shut up soon. The lightning bugs will die. The birds will go south.
I've been living each day and night as if it were my last. I've kinda fell for this vision of living for the present. I don't party too hard, and I am pretty responsible still, but I've opened up a lot in recent months. Some people think I do too much. I smoke too many cigarettes or drink too many beers way too often. They think that I don't have a grasp of my responsibilities as an semi-independent person... thankfully none of those people are my parents. These are acquaintances who were like me. They'd stay in every night playing on the computer or watching stupid shows on Bravo like Top Chef/Model. I'm not knocking people who watch those shows either, let's make that clear. I just realized that sometimes you have to drive home very buzzed blasting Cheshire Cat with your windows down. Sometimes you need to live. Sure my way of living isn't for some people. And that's fine.
I just really love summer. I love South Jersey almost as much as I love my own mother, but damn I wish I could have my pool open every day, never have to wear long pants except for formal events, and not be freezing when I go to the deck bar at Otts. I wish I wasn't cold when I drove home tonight from Govz's and Dixon's. I wish it wasn't only 24 degrees from freezing outside (it's 56 now).
The only real bright spot was that it didn't smell like fall. You won't smell that smell when it's cold out and it's not autumn or close to autumn. Tree leaves expel stuff once the sun is at a certain point from Earth and photosynthesis is almost impossible. With the trillions of leaves just in the state of New Jersey that's what makes the autumn air smell the way it does. It doesn't smell that during winter because all the leaves fall off.
So there's still time. Still over a month left of summer. And unless I win the Mega Millions Jackpot the situations stay the same. If I do win then I will be bringing myself and my friends on a re-creation of the Endless Summer. Just warm weather and good waves to surf all over the world.
Came home tonight, half-drunk, trying to get my key in the door lock. I gave out a big sigh and there it was. The huge misty cloud of CO2 purely visible escaping my lungs. Cold.
I know it's just a fluke. I know the hottest days of this summer aren't even here yet. The summer's best beach days haven't even arrived. The summer's best thunderstorms have yet to scare me. It was a reminder. All the partying I'm doing, all the nights spent out. All the times I go to bed when more then 3/4ths the eastern standard time is getting up to go to work... it reminded me that all glory is fleeting.
Within the next 5 weeks. I'll be back in school. Big Boy school Rowan University. Working my part-time liquor store job, going to school, going to bed at reasonable hours. I enjoy the freedom I have now. I enjoy wearing my camo shorts and matching shoes almost every day. I enjoy being hung over and passing out in my tube in the deep end of the pool, with the sun drenching my face with it's life-giving warmth.
It was a stark reminder that the crickets will shut up soon. The lightning bugs will die. The birds will go south.
I've been living each day and night as if it were my last. I've kinda fell for this vision of living for the present. I don't party too hard, and I am pretty responsible still, but I've opened up a lot in recent months. Some people think I do too much. I smoke too many cigarettes or drink too many beers way too often. They think that I don't have a grasp of my responsibilities as an semi-independent person... thankfully none of those people are my parents. These are acquaintances who were like me. They'd stay in every night playing on the computer or watching stupid shows on Bravo like Top Chef/Model. I'm not knocking people who watch those shows either, let's make that clear. I just realized that sometimes you have to drive home very buzzed blasting Cheshire Cat with your windows down. Sometimes you need to live. Sure my way of living isn't for some people. And that's fine.
I just really love summer. I love South Jersey almost as much as I love my own mother, but damn I wish I could have my pool open every day, never have to wear long pants except for formal events, and not be freezing when I go to the deck bar at Otts. I wish I wasn't cold when I drove home tonight from Govz's and Dixon's. I wish it wasn't only 24 degrees from freezing outside (it's 56 now).
The only real bright spot was that it didn't smell like fall. You won't smell that smell when it's cold out and it's not autumn or close to autumn. Tree leaves expel stuff once the sun is at a certain point from Earth and photosynthesis is almost impossible. With the trillions of leaves just in the state of New Jersey that's what makes the autumn air smell the way it does. It doesn't smell that during winter because all the leaves fall off.
So there's still time. Still over a month left of summer. And unless I win the Mega Millions Jackpot the situations stay the same. If I do win then I will be bringing myself and my friends on a re-creation of the Endless Summer. Just warm weather and good waves to surf all over the world.