jaqueline_

Don't you love it when you find pieces of your life that bring back some of the best times and memories you ever had? I found a programme from when I did my first year Drama exams at college. That week was one of the best weeks of my life. I was the lighting technician for all of the plays (I didn't act in them that year), and everyone was so thankful for me doing them, and I made some of the best friends a girl could ask for in that week. Really amazing people that shared the same passions as I did. Those were the days.

I'm having major mood swings right now. And it's not that time of the month either, nowhere close. I think however it has to do with the discussions or rants I've been having with a really good friend of mine. I love her to bits because she'll just sit there and listen, or read over MSN more often than not, to whatever I say and her response is always comforting to me and is genuine and I know that she's not saying it just to make me stop ranting and raving. All this and she's just been dumped by her boyfriend. I mean how cool can a girl get? (She is getting about 10 gazillion drinks from me when we go out though!)

Right, from now on, I'm in first place. I'm sick and tired of being second or even further behind in the list. It is driving everything about me down. I need to be stronger for myself. I have to make sure that I'm first and first only. I always get pushed back, I'm never the one that is on the top of the list. I'm the little girl who thinks she's all grown up and responsible and who's not blonde or super-skinny or wearing the shortest skirt or any of that bullshit.

No. From now on, I'm myself. I'm in first place. I'm confident with who I am. I have the love of the people I care most about. And I have great friends.

And if they can't see that, FUCK 'EM!!