jaqueline_

i've just thought, i think too much. my life is kind of sucky at the moment though - not much of a social life, absolutely no money, no full-time job as yet and an auntie in Australia - my Dad's only living sister, who's got terminal cancer and we have to live with the fact that my Dad will be the only link any of us have to his side of the family, and that he'll be on his own. The worst thing is though that we know she's going to die (i hate using that word, it's so final), but we don't know when.

and what makes it harder for me is that i share the same birthday with her, so there's that special bond we have, and her daughter (my cousin), has the same birthday as well.

i need to stop thinking and look forward to the future, but right now, nothing is looking up. it's all looking towards the floor and, fuck, it sucks. i need to have a love...hugs and cuddles need apply

p.s. the only thing that makes me smile right now is thinking about that new levi's 501 antifit advert

-shake wiggle wiggle-