the situation.
I was all for it, I still am. I cannot help how I feel though. I have
a hard time knowing that there is so much being shared and I know
nothing about it. I know I choose to stay on the outside. I tried
before to be involved but that caused more issues knowing I could not
hear the conversations. I could not let them be alone I did not want
them to have a moment to discuss anything to me intimat this was a
real struggle. I watched him walk her to the car and I walked away I
was angry I was sad, Then there is the part of me that worries..have I
given something else? I struggle with that. My goal is to be finding
me and finding what I like. The problem is I also enjoy being there
for him doing things for him. I was reminded last night he has that
though, he has the control of someone else he does not need it from
me.I was not threatened at all, which is good and the help was
fantastic. Oh how I would love for her to come and clean and fold
laundry once a week hell, I will ask if we can pay for gas. I do wish
I had been stronger I wanted the laundry folded I mentioned it she
seemed she did not want to do it I let it go. I should have said fold
the laundry. I did not want to be a bitch.
So anyway, I am trying. He is trying. We are trying. We are making it.
alphadirewolf75:
Now a days that is all you can do sometimes. If you ever need a shoulder, you can message me.