i think that one of the most trusting things one can do is fall asleep next to someone. i can't do it for the life of me.
i think i formed this thought many years ago when i got my first doggie. how much trust does it involve to fall asleep on the lap of some big oafish person you don't know? a lot, i think. of course, puppies are a sleepy lot.
but yah ... i could never do the stay-over thing at some guy's place. though they would ask (especially SugarRay), i would usually slip out after they fell asleep. if i fall asleep at all it is only because i am exhausted. usually, i just listen to them breathe or watch the way they contort themselves into some sexy shape (the Gypsy, that last time ... goh). but that gets old after like ... 15 minutes. then it's a lot of clock watching.
it fades, though ... i could always fall asleep with That One Douche, and of course Tyrone, with his Nautica-encrusted king-sized bed.
but those were relationships.
so i guess what i mean is that i could never fall asleep with someone i wasn't in a relationship with, right? which does involve trust in some way ...
i don't mean to imply that i've left many beds. just those 2. firefly never asked.
been in a nostalgic mood lately. i'll give it a couple more days to fade. if it doesn't, it may be worth some contemplation.
in other news ... this shopping has got to stop! i know it must be some sort of retail therapy thing, but i haven't figured out what is causing it. if it's the overwhelming debt i am in - well, that's just pathetic. how can someone with "excellent credit" be in so much debt? craziness ...
a thought that hit me at World Market today ... which is worse - fear of being alone, or the realization that you might be perfectly content that way? i've been on my own for so long that i really can't imagine what it would be like to commit ... like ... living by someone else's schedule or ... having to answer my phone! good heavens!
and finally, here are just a few things i find admirable in a person: strong strong strong strong strong work ethic, desire/passion to live a well-rounded life, and at least the ability to enjoy all of the hours of the day without requiring some mood-enhancing substance.
by no means a complete list, but trust me, it's hard enough to find just these.
remember when my requirements were "must be at least 6'2" and not drink/do any drugs"? yah ... good luck with that, lady.
ha. we all have to grow up sometime.
i think i formed this thought many years ago when i got my first doggie. how much trust does it involve to fall asleep on the lap of some big oafish person you don't know? a lot, i think. of course, puppies are a sleepy lot.
but yah ... i could never do the stay-over thing at some guy's place. though they would ask (especially SugarRay), i would usually slip out after they fell asleep. if i fall asleep at all it is only because i am exhausted. usually, i just listen to them breathe or watch the way they contort themselves into some sexy shape (the Gypsy, that last time ... goh). but that gets old after like ... 15 minutes. then it's a lot of clock watching.
it fades, though ... i could always fall asleep with That One Douche, and of course Tyrone, with his Nautica-encrusted king-sized bed.
but those were relationships.
so i guess what i mean is that i could never fall asleep with someone i wasn't in a relationship with, right? which does involve trust in some way ...
i don't mean to imply that i've left many beds. just those 2. firefly never asked.
been in a nostalgic mood lately. i'll give it a couple more days to fade. if it doesn't, it may be worth some contemplation.
in other news ... this shopping has got to stop! i know it must be some sort of retail therapy thing, but i haven't figured out what is causing it. if it's the overwhelming debt i am in - well, that's just pathetic. how can someone with "excellent credit" be in so much debt? craziness ...
a thought that hit me at World Market today ... which is worse - fear of being alone, or the realization that you might be perfectly content that way? i've been on my own for so long that i really can't imagine what it would be like to commit ... like ... living by someone else's schedule or ... having to answer my phone! good heavens!
and finally, here are just a few things i find admirable in a person: strong strong strong strong strong work ethic, desire/passion to live a well-rounded life, and at least the ability to enjoy all of the hours of the day without requiring some mood-enhancing substance.
by no means a complete list, but trust me, it's hard enough to find just these.
remember when my requirements were "must be at least 6'2" and not drink/do any drugs"? yah ... good luck with that, lady.
ha. we all have to grow up sometime.
I also think that someone like you probably makes it hard to live without somebody else. Ya know?