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I hate that I'm always venting negative, usually girl-related bullshit on here but the fact is that this is the most private ranting space I have so it's the only place I can really do it without getting in trouble or exposing stuff to the wrong people.

So now that you're all aware that I'm not just like this all the time every day, here...
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crimsonpetals:
I hate how friends are divided after break ups...it seems to happen no matter how mutual or messed up it is! Hopefully I don't have to go through a break up again tongue

I guess though, a break up really brings out everyones true colours. People get caught red handed lying and talking behind your back. As much as it sucks frown I'd rather weed out the c***'s! smile (excuse the language!)
conjure:
I needed to have come here so much sooner, I'm so sorry.

WOAH, woah. WHO'S THE GIRL?????? OMG. It seems we both have news to report when we eventually have coffee/dinner/facetime/fuckingsomethingwhererIcansmellyou

Hey, and don't beat yourself up about this. I know you still are. It's hard. She was a great gal, and you're a great guy, but it wasn't right. Just get some amunition ready to convince yourself if wasn't right so that everytime she pops into your head you can remind yourself why the whole thing was a bad idea.

Out of sight, out of mind is another really important one. No talking to her, thinking about her, going near her hosue, or even talking about her to anyone. Let her slip into your distant long term memory, instead of the rehearsable intermediate-term memory, where you can easily recall her any time you want. Every time you think about her, distract yourself, and she'll eventually fade.

And when she does, you can call her, have coffee, catch up on lost time and be a new person. Stronger and more protective of your own needs.

Love you.
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I'm a complete arse sometimes. It's not intentional & I always mean well but I feel I should apologize regardless.

Sorry folks.
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megglatron:
Stalk Stalk Stalk Stalk
megglatron:
Maaaayybbeee... (looks around)
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I have a date Wednesday. biggrin
cromnac:
How'd it go?
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I nearly got fired today.

The area manager called to talk to my boss & as I handed the phone over I said "it's your boyfriend!" He immediately told my store manager to hand the phone back & absolutely cut sick at me. Basically said if I fuck up one thing ever now he's kicking me out.

Fucking asshole baby.
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teeman:
Ehh if he's your superior and you don't really know him on a jovial level, then yeah if he's a bit of a douche he can dress you down like that and be justified. Don't give 'em an excuse, that's what I think
macaronisunshine:
Fuck him.
He's such an ass.

I could take him down for ya? ;D
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It took 3 months but tonight I think it really just finally set in that things with the Tornado are over and won't pick up again.

I actually feel sick.
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macaronisunshine:
<3
conjure:
Oh, the usual. I see all the beauty, and all the pain in the world and forgive everyone because it's one big clusterfuck that I'm constantly surprised anyone, anywhere is even alive and not completely fucking overwhelmed every second of every day.

Ir's been a big weekend. Love, trial, tribulation, impending assessments, a stupid test, and moving house. My usual life, generally.
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Any questions?
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tekky:
what are you talking about?
conjure:
Oh I'm sorry about your name! :/

And regarding your apology, don't mention it. If it were just you doing it it would be fine (welcome, and totally awesome) but there are so many people in Jason's life trying to make sure we "remain friends" post breakup, and new internet friends begging for my time, and lost ex-Brisbanite souls reaching for a life-rope that make everything all together become too much.

I definitely want to see you. You're an actual friend. And if I don't get time, or get short with my responses, or forget to make time please don't ever feel like you're hassling me too much. All I wish for with you and I is that I had the time freedom at the moment to propose my *own* meetup with you! Instead of you doing it and me saying yes (or, worsly, no.)

I miss hanging. You'll have to come over and see my new place when I get one. This place never really felt like home, it's too dirty so I tried my very best to keep people away from it. I have great hopes for my new home.

I really hope you're well. God it's been so damn long since I've seen you. We really do need to meet up. Totes miss you. And not at my work either, where there's always a thought in my mind like I need to be working and not talking, I want to see you when I can actually be there with you. One Saturday coming up. Or one Tuesday night in the city (or better yet, Fitzroy) for dinner or something. We will definitely find a time.
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Tell me things kgo.
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conjure:
Woah. Lelaina's fact is outstanding.

Also - my brain loves you back.

Furthermore - I can only write like that when I'm crazy emotional. It's really annoying. A terrible, terrible catch-22.
conjure:
No, I totally get emotional in the second one. That's how it rolls. It's full of super fun times with a million people I miss and will never see again. The second one was bad, the first one was better. smile
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conjure:
That was a fine comment! Write whatever! Just a smiley face is fine, or letting me know that *you* know that I made up a date on a photo instead of putting any actual thought into when it was taken - that's fine too. Except shuddup, I needed a 'historical' photo wink
hyatt:
Thank you for being so sweet. kiss It means a lot that you can say that to me despite having known me for so short a time.

The feeling is mutual. smile I know you're surrounded by a lot of love so I'm probably not needed but if you ever need a different take or someone to talk utter smack with - hit me up k?

PS - I STILL think you should go light. Platinum blonde please!
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The Tornado calls me this morning as she's feeling lonely and after 20 minutes of chit-chat tells me I flirt/lech/say inappropriate things to my female friends far too much & that it was the biggest reason that she fell out of love with me.

Maybe she's right

The self-loathing is at an all-time high right now. This last year I've felt like I'm actualy more...
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conjure:
Totally. Kated. That'd be my equivalent.

eh. I need to sleep too. Hey I really can't wait for Friday. smile
hyatt:
Why thank you.

And sir, if I turn into a zombie I'd be honoured if you took the first slash. tongue