jamwise

Can someone please come up with a pill or device or something to make sleep irrelevant?

I really hate it. It feels like such a monumental waste of time to me. My problem is that I'm both a night person and a morning person. I cant really sleep during the day coz there's things to go out and do, and I cant really sleep at night because I love the solitude and clarity of it. Rrrrggghh...

Anyway.

Man I hate thinking about the past.

I've had her in my head all night again. Sometimes I feel like I've traded her away for SG. I'm starting to be hit hard with the idea that things may never really be ok between us again, and I dont know if I'm going to be able to actually deal with that at all.

I'm feeling like I have less and less of a place in my social group with each passing day. I know its stupid and I cant really blame people for being busy with school and work and boy/girlfriends, but its still majorly suckey.

Hmm... maybe I just get stupid and lonely in the winter months... wouldnt surprise me greatly.



I took this pic in my room one night in mid 2004. Fuck I miss the simplicity of stupid young innocence.


-Edit-

Alright, now it's worse. Now I'm questioning just how things were prior to all this. Were things any better? I honestly dont know for once...