jamie87

I still miss my friend and seem incapable of doing things because of it.its been just over a month.
I should have mentioned that I used to go out with him.I live 5 houses down from him,5 minutes from where hes now buried and I don't like it.because everywhere I go I remember more things about him things I dont want to remember.
every little conversation ,every little tiny thing he did .how funny he was how much he didn't understand me.
he was going to be 21 three days after he died.he has an 8 week old son.
this is all irrelevant to others but to me I don't want to deal with mortality.
I have a job which I never get work,I have a great c.v. and no1 will employ me because I'm over qualified.
I go to sleep @7pm wake up @4am.
I have a slipped disk in my back and I'm very angry.
I;'m so pissed off at everything it should fucking fix itself right fucking now!!!!!!