I MISS MY FRIEND
This week was not too bad, hurt my right knee so now i have a broken left foot and a sore right knee, what's next huh lol.
Well i miss my friend Jason who was married to Rhonda the girl who pretty much used me. Before all this went down jason and i were in a band together or trying to start one, after all this shit started he told me to be careful about helping her, i wish i had listened to him, he knows her better than anyone, they were maried for 17 years. In the early 90's we were in a band together for 3 years, lost touch after he married her, caught up again in 95 but again lost touch, once i got on facebook i found him again and thought things between them were still good, sure they fight but what couple doesn't? i just enjoyed hanging with him, we had alot of the same things to talk about, big star wars and trek fans and i enjoyed going to there home cause i got to leave mine lol. but once he left i did not really know what my role should be, there were both my friends, she pretty much talked me into helping her out and just not talk to him, well he thinks me and her were dating which really never happened, i was kinda the transitional guy but i did not want the title but ended up with it. i did not want to be with her, she came onto me, saying if i would be her room mate and maybe more than that, well damn it to hell i started to fall for it and things were doing pretty good but at the same time it was not want i wanted to do, she was the last person i thought would ever be interesed in me and she wasn't , just keeping me around mainly to take her places and i guess do the man thing whatever that was, well we fooled around some and i won't lie i liked it, i had not been with a girl in 5 years so someone comes on to me what do you think will happen? Well now i should had just gotten out when i had the chance. cause i did not feel right doing things with her cause she was still married, well she found someone else that feeled that void, screwed him with me in the other room, making noices to piss me off, man i was so mad but should had just left but like an ass i didn't, soon all she talked about was that guy. Well Jason still thought i was sleeping with her but i wasn't but the damage had been done and he removed me from my buddy list on facebook, guess i can't blame him, all i wanted to do was hang out and be friends like we were years ago, things were going so well with that but it all went south and now he has nothing to say. But i decided that he has to live his own life and move on and so will i though i wish he would at least email back saying "goto hell" or something, hate to be ignored, eve if i did the wrong thing. Maybe someday we can be friends again. we will see, as for Rhonda she is still with that guy and in love so i've heard. It is far from over , have tha t lease crap to try and fix, i'm sure she will try and sue me for that, i'll cross that bridge when i get to it. Sometimes i find myself still missing her but then i think even if i stayed that i would hate it so i think i made the right choice to leave when i did though it should have never gotten that far. sorry this blog is long. rambling is a bad habit of mine. Take care pees talk to ya soon.
This week was not too bad, hurt my right knee so now i have a broken left foot and a sore right knee, what's next huh lol.
Well i miss my friend Jason who was married to Rhonda the girl who pretty much used me. Before all this went down jason and i were in a band together or trying to start one, after all this shit started he told me to be careful about helping her, i wish i had listened to him, he knows her better than anyone, they were maried for 17 years. In the early 90's we were in a band together for 3 years, lost touch after he married her, caught up again in 95 but again lost touch, once i got on facebook i found him again and thought things between them were still good, sure they fight but what couple doesn't? i just enjoyed hanging with him, we had alot of the same things to talk about, big star wars and trek fans and i enjoyed going to there home cause i got to leave mine lol. but once he left i did not really know what my role should be, there were both my friends, she pretty much talked me into helping her out and just not talk to him, well he thinks me and her were dating which really never happened, i was kinda the transitional guy but i did not want the title but ended up with it. i did not want to be with her, she came onto me, saying if i would be her room mate and maybe more than that, well damn it to hell i started to fall for it and things were doing pretty good but at the same time it was not want i wanted to do, she was the last person i thought would ever be interesed in me and she wasn't , just keeping me around mainly to take her places and i guess do the man thing whatever that was, well we fooled around some and i won't lie i liked it, i had not been with a girl in 5 years so someone comes on to me what do you think will happen? Well now i should had just gotten out when i had the chance. cause i did not feel right doing things with her cause she was still married, well she found someone else that feeled that void, screwed him with me in the other room, making noices to piss me off, man i was so mad but should had just left but like an ass i didn't, soon all she talked about was that guy. Well Jason still thought i was sleeping with her but i wasn't but the damage had been done and he removed me from my buddy list on facebook, guess i can't blame him, all i wanted to do was hang out and be friends like we were years ago, things were going so well with that but it all went south and now he has nothing to say. But i decided that he has to live his own life and move on and so will i though i wish he would at least email back saying "goto hell" or something, hate to be ignored, eve if i did the wrong thing. Maybe someday we can be friends again. we will see, as for Rhonda she is still with that guy and in love so i've heard. It is far from over , have tha t lease crap to try and fix, i'm sure she will try and sue me for that, i'll cross that bridge when i get to it. Sometimes i find myself still missing her but then i think even if i stayed that i would hate it so i think i made the right choice to leave when i did though it should have never gotten that far. sorry this blog is long. rambling is a bad habit of mine. Take care pees talk to ya soon.