james_

I am becoming slowly concerned by the knot in my gut, and the stabbing pains it's causing me. It cannot be natural to lose at least 1lb a day. If not more. Some days it's 2 or even 3lbs.
I don't want to sound like I'm being dramatic, or overreacting here, but I think there's a small chance it could be something serious. How can I put this tactfully? erm, certain of my bodily functions don't seem to be working the way they should, and it's kind of scaring me. I weigh 9 stone 11 at the minute, but my body shows no sign of stopping this slow decay. I honestly don't know, and I'm honestly too scared that it could be *that C word* to go to the doctor. It runs in my family, and I'm damned if that's a family tradition I'm going to follow.
Also, why the hell do I still feel like such a fat bastard? surely with a BMI of 22 I should be pretty trim, and it's true that absolutely NONE of my clothes fit me anymore, not even the ones I bought 2 weeks ago, but I still can't help the feeling that I could stand to lose about 5 or 6 more lbs.
Otherwise I guess I'm pretty good. Had a bit of a jam today, and got some good stuff down. Other than that, it's been a typically nonproductive day off. Anyway. It's valentines day, and in the tradition of the last 22 years I have no valentine, so I shall celebrate with the usual combination of drinking my self into a stupor and smoking far too many cigarettes.
Nice.