Whats up everybody??
My fingers are numb from playing outside so we are going to warm them up by typing as fast as i can! Please forgive my horrible punctuation and grammar errors. :)
So my life is fucking awesome right now and heres why, I feel more liberated and free than ever. I haven't worked a day in almost 3 months. Which is absurb at my age, but sometimes you need to take breaks from life. I feel like after all my major break ups I need to recooperate exactly how I see fit. I feel really really good... most the time. Not being productive can sometimes weigh on me, but I've been getting lots of sleep... been enjoying my days and being grateful for all I have. I'm in this cute little safe cave with women who love me and accept me exactly how I am. I am being chased by boys which is probably good for my little bruised ego. I've been creating art which is exciting and inspiring. I love getting on creative kicks because they are just fuel for more and more. I have been practicing my poi almost every night. Listening to music and learning this ancient dance. Its not as hot as it sounds, theres a lot of me hitting myself in the face and cursing.... my poor neighbors too because the pair of poi that i possess are the best you can buy, the pod poi, which are LED and AWESOME FLASHY COLORS!!!
Spring time is such a wonderful time of rebirth and hope and an invitation for change and new beginnings.
My lil heart is getting carried away by a man that I reconnected with recently. We knew each other from across the bar and through mutual friends and whatnot.... now we are in the same place at the same time and discovering that we connect great. Non stop conversation and loving vibes.... he likes me just the way I am he said, which sparked a fire in my heart and in my pants. I just want to be myself.... above all things. I NEED that, I can't NOT be myself right now. I am craving that feeling with all my being. I just want to call people into my life that empower me and excite me and teach me, the world is full of teachers, students, and kindred spirits and I just want to know them and meet them and experience everything at its rawest form without holding back in any way for any reason.
I got 18 days till my ranch job starts.
I have been doing shoots lately, and Im anxious to share with ya'll. I am trying to schedule another nude horseback shoot, which is always fun. I just want to ride naked. I started using that hashtag #ridenaked I dont know if you guys know Hildreth.... he's got some sets bought on here, but we shot together last week and hes awesome. Very professional and a brilliant artist and perfectionist. I recommend him to any hopefuls in the Colorado area. He posted a pic of me on instagram @Hildreth and it got over 300 likes, which is kind of a big deal cuz my pictures never get more than 20 or so :)
Also, I bought a O-pen Vape pen and almost entirely quit smoking weed. Just enjoying this vape pen so much. Its a great high and I still feel like i can accomplish things and cuts back on anxiety and that "too high" feeling that I often get. Very excited about it. It has a USB charger too.... bad ass, right? I learned about it at the Cannabis Cup. What a good time that was.
Alrighty, I'm going to try and wrap it up before I write a novel.
One love.
