so.... kind of a big deal that I GOT A BOYFRIEND
im not sure how it happened, very quickly but pretty exciting. I usually dont date, its been a long time.
We had a feelings talk the other day because he had bite marks from another girl on him when I went to spend the ngiht and we talked about it. I try not to be territorial but I have also been trying really hard to show myself respect lately and love and listen to my inner voice that this time said... no no more girls, I want you to myself!
then the next day he asked me what I was up to this weekend and I said... hanging out with erika, and he said...w hat are you goign to do.. and I said HOPEFULLY HAVE SEX haha (love me some erika) and then he was like... nooo ur mine
RELATIONSHIP
I'm not sure if u call that a boyfriend, but thats as close to a boyfriend as i have had in years. I am too scared to use that word outloud. Probably as time goes on it will become more comfortable.
I have already been freaking out about it a little bit. Its been soooo long since i had to take someone else's feelings into consideration and my last relationship was kind of abusive and thats probably why its been so long. I went to an art show and a guy friend drove me home and then we smoked a blunt together and adam (this name is adam) called me and i started to panic a little that I had a boy in my room and I was like... calllmmm down.
I hope this works out because he is a chef at my work and I don't want to make things weird. He is very sweet, we cuddle and tell each other how much we like each other a lot.
hes super goofy, rasta reggae loving, and what I have heard around is a level 5 clinger. I loooove it though when boys want to spend all there time with me and get all obsessed cuz thats how I am when i realy like someone and I dont ever want to come on too strong.
Last winter I recorded a song that I wrote with a friend and she just emailed it to me today... brought me sooaring back last december.
I am super excited for thanksgiving or should I said... Franksgiving. Since Im so far away from my family I'm spending the day with all the people i work with. its a smoking, drinking, FANCY eating day so that will be great. I'm excited about it.
steffany and I might move to the bigger downstairs apartment. our friend who got us out here is moving back here and i think hes going to take my apartment which is a good thing. my house with be a great place to be.
I did a photoshoot today on my horse! did i say up here that the horse ran away with me today, twice. i cant remember... im really upset about it. kinda ruined my day. :/ i get really angry when horses scare me. I got off of him and punched him in the face when he finally stopped but he ran down the beach and then on the rocks and halfway home pracically til he turned around and decided to run back... supposably i froze but.. he was buckign and i was scared... fucker.
alright tahts my updates.
im not sure how it happened, very quickly but pretty exciting. I usually dont date, its been a long time.
We had a feelings talk the other day because he had bite marks from another girl on him when I went to spend the ngiht and we talked about it. I try not to be territorial but I have also been trying really hard to show myself respect lately and love and listen to my inner voice that this time said... no no more girls, I want you to myself!
then the next day he asked me what I was up to this weekend and I said... hanging out with erika, and he said...w hat are you goign to do.. and I said HOPEFULLY HAVE SEX haha (love me some erika) and then he was like... nooo ur mine
RELATIONSHIP
I'm not sure if u call that a boyfriend, but thats as close to a boyfriend as i have had in years. I am too scared to use that word outloud. Probably as time goes on it will become more comfortable.
I have already been freaking out about it a little bit. Its been soooo long since i had to take someone else's feelings into consideration and my last relationship was kind of abusive and thats probably why its been so long. I went to an art show and a guy friend drove me home and then we smoked a blunt together and adam (this name is adam) called me and i started to panic a little that I had a boy in my room and I was like... calllmmm down.
I hope this works out because he is a chef at my work and I don't want to make things weird. He is very sweet, we cuddle and tell each other how much we like each other a lot.
hes super goofy, rasta reggae loving, and what I have heard around is a level 5 clinger. I loooove it though when boys want to spend all there time with me and get all obsessed cuz thats how I am when i realy like someone and I dont ever want to come on too strong.
Last winter I recorded a song that I wrote with a friend and she just emailed it to me today... brought me sooaring back last december.
I am super excited for thanksgiving or should I said... Franksgiving. Since Im so far away from my family I'm spending the day with all the people i work with. its a smoking, drinking, FANCY eating day so that will be great. I'm excited about it.
steffany and I might move to the bigger downstairs apartment. our friend who got us out here is moving back here and i think hes going to take my apartment which is a good thing. my house with be a great place to be.
I did a photoshoot today on my horse! did i say up here that the horse ran away with me today, twice. i cant remember... im really upset about it. kinda ruined my day. :/ i get really angry when horses scare me. I got off of him and punched him in the face when he finally stopped but he ran down the beach and then on the rocks and halfway home pracically til he turned around and decided to run back... supposably i froze but.. he was buckign and i was scared... fucker.
alright tahts my updates.
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motherwolf:
yeah, yeah, mmm food, yeah, slap he fucker for me too....not to hard though.
lx_tech:
That's an awesome thing to have happen with a boy. The horse running away sounds scary, but mostly because I know very little about handling horses. I hope your island adventures continue to bring you joy and happiness. 