jamber

Hello my dears.

House sitting for freinds and getting some computer time.

Hum. Update. Yes. Fuck, I dont even know what to say.

I am well. I have been having some pretty steep emotional rides latley, as I try to figure out how to live on 300$ a month, support myself and my child, and how to continue on with my life. It is hard ya know. Not being without Josh, that is a piece of cake. Josh was an emotional drain on me and I am happy to be free of our marraige. It's the lack of routine, that free floating feeling that is hard to deal with. My house wolnt be done being built until September, and in the meantime I am homeless.

I was pretty happy staying where I was, but things got sour. I have no space that is all my own, as I share a room with the man-friend. Olivia goes crazy. I dont even have a place to put her down for her naps! AGH! Do you know how important a nap is to a 2 year old?!? Oh, and that man-friend. Dont even get me started. I am happy with him, but damn. Relationships take a lot of head space, especially weird-kinda-sorta-maybe-we-are-and-maybe-were-not ones.... I just dont have room for him in my head at this time. I want to concerntrate on my kid, my house, and my assortment of jobs. I am not throwing away what we have (whatever the hell it is), but I am putting it on the back burner for now.

So, I am moving in with some other friends, and I will have my own space.

Ah. This feels nice.

-Amber-