jamber

Ah. what a day.

I am feeling nice an organized today. I decided to make some changes in the way my family is operating, and I feel good about those changes. First off, my husband and I came to an understanding about time. That is, the time we dont spend together. We are an unorganized bunch, and we rarley meet together all at once. That isnt good. Friday nights will be our nights together, saturdays mornings will be dedicated to house building, and saturday afternoons will be for the three of us as a family, as will sunday afternoons. I think this is a good step. We tested it out last week and it worked great.

Secondly, I moved our daughter out of the family bed. I am proud of our choice to co-sleep with our baby, but a baby she is not, anymore. She is now a toddler and for the last two weeks my husband has slept out on the living room couch so he can sleep in peace. This isnt the way it should be. So, I finally did it. We have had false starts before, trying to move her out, because I wasnt ready. But, now I am definatly ready for this big step. I know I may loose some sleep in this process, as she adjusts, but I am prepared for it. She isnt that far away, actually, which I think helps a bit. She is sleeping in her new bed right now, which is on the floor next to ours. She has her own little pillow and everything....its pretty sweet.

So, I am feeling pretty wordy this evening. I am on call and the closer I get to this up coming birth the more energetic and hyper I get. She is 5 days past her due date and I know I could get a call at any moment. I am extremly jazzed about this birth, more so than any I have done before. I get the honor of attending a woman who is a friend.

I think she will labor beautifully. The women I have helped so far looked lovley while they labored, even though they were not especially lovely in life. During their labors they transformed into elemental forces, and I was in awe of there power. This woman I am waiting for, well, she is beautiful everyday, and her energy is tangable. I imagine her labor will knock me off my feet, and I expect she will be radiant.

Fear not, the time is coming
Fear not, your bones are strong
Fear not, help is nearby
Fear not, Gula is near
Fear not, the baby is at the door
Fear not, he will live to bring you honor
Fear not, the hands of the midwife are clever
Fear not, the earth is beneath you
Fear not, we have water and salt
Fear not, little mother
Fear not, mother of us all



Amber