I really missed her.
Sometimes things get wierd and it takes time for them to work themselves out.
Im gratful for the time that has passed, and for the friends that I have.
Sometimes things get wierd and it takes time for them to work themselves out.
Im gratful for the time that has passed, and for the friends that I have.
aurora_b_alice:
I'm too empathetic....I almost cry every time I see the part where he doesn't get a peice of cake. Poor lil guy.
How's the house coming?
Do you ever make any visits back to Santa Cruz?
How's the house coming?
Do you ever make any visits back to Santa Cruz?
So, I think my uterus is okay.
I do not have an Ectopic pregnancy. That is when the baby inplants in the fallopian tube instead of in the cozy lining of the uterus. It is a rare thing, but it happens, and im at a slightly increased risk because i have an IUD (Intrauterine device). It requires surgery to remove the fetus, otherwise it...
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I do not have an Ectopic pregnancy. That is when the baby inplants in the fallopian tube instead of in the cozy lining of the uterus. It is a rare thing, but it happens, and im at a slightly increased risk because i have an IUD (Intrauterine device). It requires surgery to remove the fetus, otherwise it...
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somethin' funny is going on in my uterus.
ultrasound on thursday......
ultrasound on thursday......
aurora_b_alice:
Oh yikes, I hope everything goes ok.
I wanted to try out my photoshop tricks on other people's pics, and I really liked the one of you and your baby. Effects are subtle, but I thought you might like it.
I wanted to try out my photoshop tricks on other people's pics, and I really liked the one of you and your baby. Effects are subtle, but I thought you might like it.
I have discovered something about myself: I dont like parties
I mean, it doesnt even matter what kind of party it is. I have never had a good time at a party, or any other kind of social gathering. I just dont know what to do. I stand there, watch people talking....and feel totally uncomfortable. I am trying to think of a time when I...
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I mean, it doesnt even matter what kind of party it is. I have never had a good time at a party, or any other kind of social gathering. I just dont know what to do. I stand there, watch people talking....and feel totally uncomfortable. I am trying to think of a time when I...
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tartpop:
it was hard. it was painful. and it did not go at ALL how i wanted it to. i was in so much pain and i was so scared by everything and just could not get it together and focus and stay in control. and everyone kept yelling at me and i kept yelling at them and was screaming at the top of my lungs it hurt so bad and i was so mad that they kept telling me to be quiet. i mean, damn- if you slam your hand in a car door, you yell and curse because it hurts right? well damn if labor doesn't hurt wayyyyyyy worse than slamming your hand in a car door you know? i was crawling up the bed trying to get away from them and pushing them off me when they would try to check this or that. ulch. and THEN i had to stay in the hospital for a few extra days hooked up to magnesium sulfate (ulch) cause my blood pressure jumped up to 166/101 and would not come down and then had to be hooked up to potassium (OUCH! that stuff HURTS) cause my levels of that were so low that they said if it dropped any lower i could have heart failure and this and that. ulch. it was basically the most miserable five days of my life.
and don't even get me started on all the troubles i've had breastfeeding. i've already had to abandon that and switch to formula which of course i feel totally guilty for and just can't seem to stop beating myself up over, even though things are so much better for the family now that we've switched to formula. i just don't know that i'll ever feel totally comfortable feeding my son stuff that's used to cut crank and stuff with. sigh....this mom stuff is hard...and it's only been two weeks.
and don't even get me started on all the troubles i've had breastfeeding. i've already had to abandon that and switch to formula which of course i feel totally guilty for and just can't seem to stop beating myself up over, even though things are so much better for the family now that we've switched to formula. i just don't know that i'll ever feel totally comfortable feeding my son stuff that's used to cut crank and stuff with. sigh....this mom stuff is hard...and it's only been two weeks.
Im really in a bad place.
My sister in law is sick in the hospital. I care about her and want her to get better. But, more than that.....god this is so fucking selfish.....this is really messing things up for me. My mother in law wolnt leave her. I rely on my mother in law's childcare very heavily. I need her to take care of...
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My sister in law is sick in the hospital. I care about her and want her to get better. But, more than that.....god this is so fucking selfish.....this is really messing things up for me. My mother in law wolnt leave her. I rely on my mother in law's childcare very heavily. I need her to take care of...
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you can tell
from the glass on the floor
and the strings that're breaking
and i keep on breaking more
and it looks like i am shaking
but it's just the temperature
and then again
if it were any colder i could disengage
if i were any older i could act my age
but i dont think that youd believe me
it's
not
the
way...
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